Song: N/A
Mood: 5.5
Nightmares: 0
Ghosts: Lots
Lots going on in my head that I’m trying to process.
Today was not a good day. I didn’t get enough sleep (which was 100% my decision), some really shitty stuff happened, and I spent most of the day having a discussion about said shitty stuff over and over again. Then I ran across some stuff in the news that would normally make me feel something like… sadness? Frustration? Despair? Instead, it closed a breaker somewhere in my brain and I got very, very angry. I haven’t felt like this in years. Maybe longer.
I don’t know if it’s the lack of sleep or a perfect storm of several other things, but my goddamn goat has most certainly been got. I’ve been trying to relax for hours now and I’m not having much luck. Usually writing stuff out helps put things in perspective but re-thinking things is making it worse so I should probably stop here.
And there’s a weird, sporadic thumping going on somewhere outside. I want to grab my biggest torque wrench, find out what’s making the noise, and smash it until it stops.
Stay safe.