Turns Out I Didn’t Need To Be Nervous

Song: “Johnny B Rotten” by The Monks

Mood: 6.5

Nightmares: 0

I felt quite a bit better on Friday morning. No headache and I got a relatively good sleep. As the day went on, though, I got more and more worried about my relatives coming by on Saturday morning. The construction that had been going on all week was in full swing, too, so that was causing me some difficulties.

I didn’t get much sleep on Friday night and fell back asleep after the alarm went off Saturday morning. When I finally heaved myself out of bed, I realized that a bunch of the time that J and I had planned to spend tidying up and getting ready for everyone to arrive had already gone by. A flop sweat ran into my eyes and down my back as J and I scrambled to get everything in order.

Eventually, we got things where we wanted them and then waited for everyone to arrive. I took a PRN and did some breathing exercises to try to calm down. I hadn’t had a chance to do my exercises that morning, and I acutely felt it. Finally, my parents’ car arrived and people started to get out.

J greeted them at the door and everyone made their way into the living room, where plenty of hugs and hellos were exchanged, and my anxiety dissolved. I hadn’t seen my aunt or uncle in around 15 years, and I had never before met the cousin who was travelling with them, but we were all family and everything was wonderful. My parents, my uncle and aunt and cousin, and J and I swapped a lot of stories and spent a lot of time laughing before heading to the dining room table for a quick lunch.

After we were done lunch, we talked for a little longer and then they all had to squeeze back into the car to head to the airport to catch their respective flights. I felt relief and was a little sad that everybody had to leave so quickly. J and I have been invited out to visit, and it would be really neat if we could manage that sometime soon!

It was so great to see everybody, and I felt (and still feel) silly for being so nervous about the whole thing. They’re wonderful, gregarious people and always have been. We could’ve met them in the parking lot of a condemned Burger King in the pouring rain and we still would’ve had a great time and lots of laughs. I am very lucky to have such good people in my family.

I didn’t sleep well last night again. I kept waking up, worried about one thing or another. For the most part, I was able to get back to sleep pretty easily, bu I had to get out of bed twice – once to check the hot water tank and once to make sure the thermostat was set to the right temperature.

Today went by very quickly. J worked on the course she’s taking, and I puttered around for a while before I found it hard to focus my eyes, so I decided to take a nap.

After the nap, I felt a little better. J and I had supper later than usual and then went downstairs to watch some more Boston Legal. We watched two episodes that closed a large arc that had been running for the last three or four episodes.

One of the things I like doing when watching shows with J is pointing out characters that have also appeared in some capacity in Star Trek. I’m sure that J really appreciates it whenever I do that. William Shatner is one of the main characters in the show, as is Rene Auberjonois, but this particular Boston Legal arc also had Armin Shimerman and Ethan Phillips. A LOT of people have been in a Star Trek show or movie over the years!

So another week begins tomorrow. Or today, depending on how you look at the calendar. I am going to be looking at some more things under the microscope and I also plan to get my microscope camera out to get better pictures than I can with my phone. If it’s not raining, I’ll walk out to the little mall again and do a couple of laps of the parking lot. I also want to spend some more time with the DVDs and maybe listen to some records if there’s enough time.

I hope that you had a good weekend and that this week is a good one for you!

Stay safe.

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