Song: “Perform This Way” by ‘Weird Al’ Yankovic
Mood: 7
Nightmares: 1
I slept well last night, and today has been a pretty good day so far. I got up, had breakfast, and did my exercises. They went very well today – I had no trouble focusing or slowing down the traffic in my brain.
I spent some time today trying exposure and response prevention exercises to try to get a handle on the OCD that’s been making a bit of a comeback. Today I worked on the downstairs freezer and was able to keep from going and checking it for most of the day. Unfortunately, once I was downstairs for another reason, I went in and checked it without thinking. I will work on it again tomorrow, and I may try the garage door again, too.
I listened to a lot of music today, most of which was Weird Al. I’m really enjoying that box set that J got me. I also did some writing and did some reading on a couple of other mental health websites. There sure are a lot out there, and some of them are really helpful.
I also spent some time thinking about work, which I probably shouldn’t. It feels like the elephant in the room, though, so it’s hard to not think about it sometimes. Sometimes I wonder if I shouldn’t even try going back to the same employer I was at. I worry about triggers and never truly being able to get away from my old job if I go back. Part of the problem is that I have no idea how the employment stuff works, and I’m afraid to ask anybody any questions. But leaving the house still bothers me, I can’t drive very far, and I can’t answer a phone, which are probably all things that a job would require. I wish there was some way I could work from home.
This evening, J and I watched another episode of Columbo. It’s a good show to watch before bed – it’s got clever writing, (mostly) good acting, and there aren’t gunfights or car chases. Nice and relaxing. If you’ve never watched an episode, I recommend giving it a try. One of the episodes from the early to mid 1970s are probably the best ones.
I’m not sure yet what I’m going to do tomorrow. Probably a load or two of laundry and I really need to clean up my office. I’ve been writing at the dining room table for far too long.
Stay safe.