Last night didn’t go very well. I had nightmares again (tent), woke up quite a few other times, and then woke up around 6AM and couldn’t get back to sleep for a few hours. I’m not sure what the deal was but it was frustrating and I felt like my head was full of mouldy old cotton balls until well after noon. Hopefully I’ll sleep a little better this evening.
Today was a pretty quiet day. J wasn’t feeling well so she stayed home today. We hung out and kind of did our own thing but I tried to keep her supplied with whatever she needed. I’m not glad that she’s not feeling well, but she takes care of me so often (and does such an amazing job) that I’m glad to be able to help her out. I know she wasn’t staying home for fun, but it was really nice that she was around.
I played some Star Trek Online and worked some more on that list for Dr C. One of the things I’m having trouble with is ranking things by how much they bother me. Lots of things bother me a little bit all the time. Other things bother me a lot but only once in a while. Most things bother me different amounts depending on the situation. I may need to add a column for notes…
I have two appointments this week: Dr W on Wednesday and Dr C on Friday. I’m not really looking forward to either of them. I know that’s not a good mindset to have ahead of time but I always feel like my brain has been smashed with a tenderizing mallet after the appointments. It’s exhausting to go through everything going on in my head while trying not to freak out about the fact that I’m stuck there, away from home, and can’t really do much about it.
Which reminds me… DA asked me if I could give him a hand with some metalwork this weekend out at his cabin. I would really really like to help him but I just can’t do it right now. I used to go out there pretty frequently and we’d get all kinds of work done and I enjoyed it a lot – hanging out with a buddy, fresh air, good food, that sort of thing. He’s asked me a few times now and I feel very guilty that I can’t help him out. I’m not even sure what to say to him that would make me feel better about things.
Other than that, there’s not much going on. I should probably get to bed.