Song: “Mr. Blue Sky” by ELO
Mood: 6
Nightmares: 0
I spent a lot of time last night waking up and checking the clock, wishing that the morning would come quickly. No nightmares, but I woke up many times. My nighttime medications are great for helping me calm down and get ready to sleep, but they don’t seem to help as much when it comes to keeping me asleep. I checked my CPAP machine and it’s not showing any associated problems so I’m not snoring myself awake.
I didn’t have a lot of luck with my exercises today again, and I began to get frustrated with them so I stopped early and went out for my walk a lot earlier than I normally do. I took the different route again today to avoid the ice – I figure it’s going to be a week or two at least before I’ll be able to take my normal route.
After I got home I did the oven exposure exercise. The urge to check and make sure the stove was okay was a constant, increasing itch but I got through it. Then I did it again, with pretty much the same results. Not the most fun way to spend the day, but it all has a purpose.
I’m not feeling well. The difficulty that I’m currently having is getting me down, and not sleeping well doesn’t help much, either. I was surprised with how this getting outside the house stuff bothers me so much, and I have no idea why it flared up like it did. I don’t know why, and I worry that once I get a handle on this stuff, something else is going to swoop in and kick me in the teeth. Plus, I got some more bad news about my uncle who’s in the hospital, and I’m worried about needing to re-do some of those blood tests I just took.
I did some reading (more Wikipedia entries) and then spent some time working on the quadcopter. After some experimentation, I now know why it’s drifting – the motors on the starboard side turn on after and off before the motors on the port side do, and they spin slower too. This is good – now I have a solid lead to follow. I’m almost there!
I put in another request to the radio station today but they texted me back and said they didn’t have my song again. That makes four or five times now. I don’t think I was asking for too many strange things – “Strutter” by KISS, “Paranoid” by Black Sabbath, ANYTHING by the Vengaboys, but no luck.
On the upside, someone else put in a request for a song that’s great. It’s “Mr. Blue Sky” by ELO and it’s fantastic. I was thinking of requesting some Ramones tomorrow but I think I may request ELO and see if it gets on the radio. Of course, maybe they know me by now and will say they don’t have it just to mess with me.
J and I finished watching the first season of Night Court this evening. I wasn’t in the right mood to be able to appreciate it for the first couple of episodes (despite having watched shows in the early ‘80s when they were first on, it sometimes takes me a bit to get into the right frame of mind) but it’s been good over the last couple of nights.
Tomorrow is my Dr W appointment. I do not want to go, but I think I need to talk to Dr W about what’s going on. I wish we could do a phone or video chat for our appointments.
Stay safe.