Song: “Grandmaster’s Jam” from Thor: Ragnarok, by Mark Mothersbaugh
Mood: 6
Nightmares: 0
The weekend went by very quickly. I haven’t had a repeat of Thursday night’s panic attack yet, so that’s a good thing. I’ve been jumpy and a little anxious but overall I think I’m feeling better than I have for the last couple of days at least. J had Friday off so it was a long weekend, too, which is always great. I haven’t slept particularly well – there’s been a few nightmares here and there but the main problem is I keep waking up worried and it sometimes takes a while to get back to sleep.
I’ve been working on the new sheets that Dr P gave me. So far, I’ve been doing two entries per day and I think I’ve been doing it correctly. So far, all of the predictions I’ve made on the sheet have been correct (and in a good way, too), and it hasn’t been a huge source of anxiety to do the sheets.
I missed my walk on Friday and Saturday so when I went today I did two laps around the neighbourhood instead of one. It’s embarrassing and frustrating, but quite interesting at how quickly things changed when I started on the second lap. As I was approaching the house, I started to feel a little bit of relief, but when I forced myself to continue past the driveway and the house fell behind me, it was like a cloud passed in front of the sun and I could feel the anxiety building again. I should probably tell Dr P about that.
My mother-in-law came over on Saturday for a short visit. She brought along food (homemade butter chicken and basmati rice) for J and I to have for supper (thank you, it was delicious!). Food aside, it was great to see her again and the three of us had a good chat. J mentioned that she’s coming in again next weekend so she may stop by again. That would be good.
It sounds silly, but I finally hit my limit on the state of my hair. A little puff of wind and all of my hair would catch it and blow forwards, and no amount of brushing or patting would put it back to where it was supposed to go. My sister and brother-in-law gave me an electric hair cutter a couple of years ago, and J was willing to try it out. She did a good job with it and it worked pretty well. My hair is a little shorter than I usually prefer (it’s about 1/2” right now) but it doesn’t look too bad at all. I still feel guilty about it, though – I have a hair stylist who I’ve been seeing for the better part of a decade and she’s really good. I feel like I’ve betrayed her by cutting my hair at home, but I just can’t go and sit in a stylist’s chair for 20 minutes right now.
J and I watched Thor: Ragnarok Saturday evening. It was corny but it embraced its corniness wholeheartedly and was a great movie. J and I both laughed quite a few times despite the fact that a gazillion people died horribly and their home was obliterated. Lots of action and the play between Thor and Banner was great. I think I’m going to have to watch it again sometime soon – there was so much going on most of the time I’m sure I missed something. I think my favourite scene (so far) is where Thor meets Dr Strange and calls his “umbrella”. I’m looking forward to seeing Black Panther and Avengers: Infinity War. I don’t think I’ve been disappointed in a Marvel movie yet.
We’ve also been finishing up the fifth season of Elementary and only have a few episodes left. I’m a little torn on how I feel about this season. Sherlock seems conveniently omniscient a little too often, I think. I know he’s supposed to be a super sleuth, but a human lifetime is too short to have read or experienced (nevermind retained) all of the facts and trivia he seems to know. I’ll have to go back to an earlier season to see if it was always like that. The episodes are pretty interesting, though, so it’s still good to watch.
This week is going to be pretty busy. I have an appointment with Dr H on Tuesday, one with Dr W on Wednesday, and one with Dr P on Thursday. I know I’ve said this already but I really wish we could do a video call or Skype or something like that instead of me going out there. I also plan to finish reconfiguring the quadcopter and get it flying for real. I’ve got tons of spare propellers so I can afford to crash a couple of times and it won’t be the end of the world.
Stay safe.