Song: “Simon and Simon Theme” by Barry De Vorzon
I slept a lot better last night. I don’t know if it was because I was so tired or because whatever planet was in whichever constellation but I fell asleep quickly, only woke up worried three times (that I can remember), I had no nightmares, and I slept until almost 8AM. I’m feeling a lot more alert and smarter today than I have for a bit. If I can get another couple of nights like that I’ll be in good shape. If this is the only good night I have for a long time, well, at least I had it.
It was really dark out this morning up until around noon. I was going to go for my walk but it was near freezing and raining. A while later it was at freezing and snowing. I am not impressed that it snowed and that the snow is still all over the lawn and the deck. I keep telling myself that there’ll be another warm spell or two before the snow is here for the winter, but I don’t know – this year might be different.
I did my exercises today and they went pretty well. The ear defenders, beach sounds, and it being very dark and gloomy helped me ignore almost everything that was going on around me. I only had to get up twice to take a look around to make sure everything was okay. Once, I was sure that I heard something breaking like a glass on a concrete floor but I couldn’t find anything.
I spent quite a bit more time today working on the list for Dr C and chasing ghosts. I’m not sure if I’m doing the right thing with my list. Dr C asked me to list everything that bothers me and rank it from most to least difficult. I have almost three pages of items at this point. I carry my phone around with me and when I catch myself checking something, I make a note of it and add it to the list. I’m not sure why but I think I’m doing this wrong. I guess I will find out on Friday.
Things didn’t work out today and I had to reschedule my Dr W appointment. Fortunately his staff is very good and he is very understanding about that sort of thing so we’re on for next Wednesday.
My parents are coming out this weekend for a day visit. For whatever stupid reason, it makes me anxious, but I am also really looking forward to seeing them again. Plus, Mom mentioned that she might put together up a lasagna that we can cook here. Lasagna is one of my all-time favourites and I haven’t had it for quite a while. Hopefully the weather improves so they have clear skies and clear roads for the drive.
I’m not 100% sure what I’m going to do tomorrow. I’ll definitely be working on the homework Dr C gave me, but beyond that I’m not sure. I might go out to the garage and give the truck a once-over. It still needs a battery but it would probably be a good idea to check the tires, oil, coolant, etc since it’s been sitting for so long. J picked up a tender a few days ago (thank you!) so that once I finally get out there and pick up a battery and install it, I won’t need to worry that it’s going to go flat.
I’ve got my fingers crossed for a good sleep. Wish me luck!