Yesterday flew by. J and I went out of town to take a look at an antique shop on the side of the highway. We’ve both been past it many times but have never gone in to take a look. They had a lot of really neat stuff, including an old tube radio that I almost bought. They had quite a record collection, too, but the records that I found that interested me were pretty beat up or priced too high. That was okay, though, because it was a neat little adventure.
On the way home we picked up Slurpees and then watched a couple of episodes of Futurama. It was a good day.
Today has been kind of rough. I’m having a lot of trouble motivating myself to do anything and I really just want to sit down and stare at the wall. I don’t know why this is happening now, but I just can’t be bothered to do anything. J prodded me a couple of times today with good ideas but I couldn’t make myself do them (and today would’ve been a great day for a motorbike ride, too).
My nighttime medication doesn’t seem to be having the same effect on me that it used to. I’d take it about two hours before bedtime and just before I went to bed I could really feel it wearing on me. My mouth would get dry and I would feel like I had hundreds of tiny people trying to pull my shoulders down toward the ground. That hasn’t happened for the last week or so. I definitely need to bring this up with Dr W. Maybe it’s time for another medication adjustment.
Speaking of Dr W, the government around here has decided to make a whole bunch of changes to the healthcare system – including the mental health facilities. The facility that I have spent almost five months of my life in is due to be closed, with the beds moving to a hospital across the city.
Now, I don’t like change in the first place, but I’m worried about what is going to happen. As always with government ideas, they stick out their chests and brag about how much money it’s going to save and how good service is going to get, but the details are tough to come by. Will Dr W be moving to the new facility? Will he keep his outpatient practice where it is now or move it as well? Will there be a “consolidation of services” and some doctors will be let go? If so, who? And when? What will happen to the nurses, clerks, and therapists?
Another thing that concerns me is that I’ve spent so much time with these professionals that they know me enough to make my stay a lot easier – it will be difficult to start from scratch with an entirely new staff.
I wish there was more information available. Then again, if it’s bad news, maybe I should be glad I don’t know more.