I didn’t sleep all that well last night. I had two nightmares. One just woke me up but I was able to get back to sleep pretty quickly, while the other was like how I used to get them. I had to get out of bed and walk around the house in the light for a while before I calmed down enough to try to get back to sleep. No panic attack, fortunately, but I haven’t had a nightmare like that for a while now.
I worked on the ERP with the garage door again today and was successful on all three attempts. I only had time for three because of my appointment this afternoon, and I’m not doing the garage door at night. I’m not confident enough to say that I’m done with the garage door – I’d like to work on it for a few more days just to be sure. I’ll have to see what Dr P says about that. I’m also thinking about what I should work on next. There are dozens of them, some more distressing than others.
My appointment with Dr W was difficult again today. I was dreading going out and by the time J got home to pick me up, I was already winding myself into knots. I did grounding and mindfulness exercises while she drove and that helped a bit. Dr W was happy to hear that the ERP is going well and we decided to not make any medication changes. I will see him again in two weeks unless something happens and I need to see him sooner. All I could think about during the appointment was how badly I wanted to be back at home.
I have my appointment with Dr P tomorrow. I am not looking forward to leaving the house again. Once a week is plenty, I think. I wonder if he does sessions over the phone…