Song: “Frank’s 2000” TV” by ‘Weird Al’ Yankovic
Mood: 6
Nightmares: 0
Even though I only forgot my evening medication for a few hours, it messed everything up. As I lay there in the dark, staring at the wall, I started worrying about how long I was going to be awake for. Every time I checked the clock, about another hour had passed. As the time went on, I was winding myself up tighter and tighter. At 3:20AM I realized I probably wasn’t going to be able to hang out with FA, so I sent her a text.
She texted me back at 5:30 and I was still awake to get her text.
J’s alarm went off at 7AM and I was still awake.
I think I finally managed to fall asleep sometime after 8:30, and I figure I got about three hours. As a result, I don’t feel all that great today. I’m tired, but at the same time I’m very jumpy, like my nerves are all on edge. I also feel bad for bailing on FA.
The thing I’m most disappointed with is that the night didn’t need to be a loss. Yes, I forgot my pills, but I shouldn’t have let it derail me like that. Once I realized I wasn’t going to be able to sleep, I should’ve got out of bed and done something instead of grinding my teeth and winding myself up. Dr C and I worked on sleep hygiene a long time ago and I know better than to stay in bed if I can’t sleep.
I didn’t accomplish much today. It was very difficult to do my exercises because I couldn’t focus on anything, and every time the house made a noise, I’d jump. I wandered around the house a bit and spent some time falling down the YouTube rabbit hole. Listened to some music, too.
Hopefully I’ll sleep well tonight and be back on track tomorrow.
Stay safe.