I didn’t sleep all that well last night. I’m not sure why but I kept waking up and felt like I needed to flip over. I also woke up when J left for work and couldn’t get back to sleep.
So today has been a bit of a long day.
My appointment with Dr P today was rough; not because of Dr P, but because the one overriding thought in my mind was that I needed to get home. We did get some stuff accomplished, though. In addition to trying two ERP targets at home (keys and freezer door this week), we’ve started to put together a list of places I can go that are outside the house. We’ve put them in order from least (0) to impossible (100) and I’m going to be starting in on that, too.
I’m tired and more than a little embarrassed that I have to do this stuff again. I thought that by now I’d be driving all over town (or at least to the places I used to be comfortable driving to) and maybe even being able to visit my parents. But nope – I can’t even go out to the garage or back door without getting an attack of the heebie jeebies.
I guess that since I have done it before (and have journal entries proving it), I can do it again. Hopefully it will be like the ERP I’ve done lately and be easier than it was last time.