Successful Drive Today

Song: “Elenor” by Me First and the Gimme Gimmes

Mood: 6.5

Nightmares: 0

Ghosts: Pack

I didn’t sleep well again last night. Fell asleep on the couch again. I don’t even remember how I got to the couch, nevermind why I thought it was a good idea to move there in the first place. I should set up a camera one of these nights and film what I do in the hour or two before I go to bed. Could be interesting and possibly even useful.

I drove to my Dr C appointment today, and it worked out okay – no chest tightening up or panic, just driving and paying attention to that. Unfortunately the whole place was a bit of a zoo so I could only get a parking spot about 400 miles away but a bit of a walk won’t hurt me. The appointment was alright. We talked a lot about the volunteering that I’m trying to do and some of the other things I’ve been doing lately, and Dr C said, “you like trying to help people a lot, why didn’t you have a job in that kind of field?” I found that kind of funny because back in high school I wanted to be a biomedical engineering technologist and work on things like artificial limbs, but for many reasons it didn’t work out.

When my appointment was done, I went and sat in the truck with music playing for a couple of minutes before driving home. Even when I do my little patrol around the house and take all the pictures to show that everything’s okay and locked up, it’s still a pretty big relief when I get back inside the house.

More designing and more printing yesterday and today. This time it was a picture stand that can also hold J’s glass. I kind of like the design – it reminds me of something from a 1960s-era airport.

Tomorrow I have an appointment with the lung specialist. I’m not really looking forward to it. It’s downtown (which I don’t like), it’s with a doctor I’ve never met before (which I don’t like), and it’s in an office I’ve never been to (which I don’t like). It will be nice to get some answers with that weird lungy feeling I’ve been having, which, after a nice break when I started on the Tamsulosin, is now making quite the comeback. But I still wish I’d just eaten something too quickly a couple of months ago and one of these days I’ll cough up a chicken beak and feel fine from then on. Although I’m guessing they’d probably find a chicken beak with an x-ray and nobody’s mentioned that.

I also spent a lot of time today pondering things, like the volunteering thing and other things I could be doing to help people out. Printing that flexible filament the other day really opened my eyes to the things I can make. Regardless of the actual practicality of it, things like wheels and belts and tracks and braces and pumps… all kinds of stuff. I will be spending more time thinking about it tomorrow, too.

So aside from the lung appointment tomorrow, that’s all I’ve got going on. Oh, a package is supposed to arrive at some point. Hopefully not while we’re out.

Stay safe.

Feeling A Little Down

Song: N/A

Mood: 6.5

Nightmares: 0

Ghosts: Lots

This past weekend was pretty good but went by way too quickly. J and I hung out and talked a lot about all kinds of stuff and the time flew.

My trusty phone is finally giving up the ghost. I don’t mind that the battery doesn’t last very long anymore, and the random app crashes were more annoying than anything, but it has now picked up the habit of locking up and rebooting. The poor thing doesn’t owe me anything – it gets a LOT of heavy use. J’s phone doesn’t last as long as it used to either, so we did some figuring and looking and we both now have new phones on the way.

I’ve been spending a lot of time designing and printing parts, most recently with flexible filament that’s light and rubbery. It’s worked out a lot better than I expected and opens a whole new range of things I can do with the printer.

The volunteering thing has been a little problematic. I really want to do it but for some reason, scheduling has been a problem and pretty frustrating. At the last minute last Friday didn’t work out but we’re going to try again this Friday. If that doesn’t work again I may step back for a while and wait until things are sorted out there.

I’ve been feeling a little down for the last few days. I’m not sure what’s causing it – could just be another up/down thing – but it’s not fun and it makes me want to stay in bed. I’m not, but it sure is tempting. I’ll have to make sure I stay busy so I don’t find myself sitting around and dwelling on whatever it is.

The 2004 reboot of Battlestar Galactica is one of my favourite shows. The story, the characters, the ships… all great. I’ve been watching The Expanse, and it reminds me very much of BSG. It’s not the same show by any means, but the way they’ve developed the core characters and how everyone has a story or two (or fifty) feels very similar. Unfortunately, The Expanse did the same thing that most of the shows or books I enjoy do – killed off my favourite character. I won’t say who it was but I apologize to the person who plays the character for liking their character, thereby sounding the death knell for said character and ending the paycheques to said person.

There were a bunch of other things I wanted to write down but they’ve slipped my mind. Probably weren’t too exciting anyway, but I should really jot this stuff down.

I have a Dr C appointment tomorrow. It’s been quite a while since the last appointment and quite a bit has happened during that time. I hope to drive tomorrow but I’m not going to push it if I’m feeling off again – I don’t want to end up panicking in a parking lot again like last time. Wish me luck.

Stay safe.

Time Is Flying

Song: “Thanks But No Thanks” by Sparks

Mood: 7

Nightmares: 0

Ghosts: Pack

I’m almost sure that I did up a post last night but it’s not here and it’s not on my computer, so I guess I didn’t.

The last two days have gone by very quickly. I did some surgery on the printer yesterday and now all the little internal fans have been replaced by two big external fans. It’s a lot quieter now and I think everything is working well. I did a test print and there wasn’t any fire or weird smells, so the printer is back in service. Plus, I made sure the smoke detector above the printer is still working. Just in case.

I’ve also been working a lot on electronics stuff. I’ve got a little mp3 player module that I’ve hooked an Arduino up to to control. It reads an SD card and can select tracks, change volume, start, pause… bahahaha, just kidding – all I can get it to do is send a -1 back to the Arduino. I’m pretty sure I’m missing something simple and I’ll figure it out when I take a run at it again tomorrow.

Almost all of the snow is gone – it got up to +9C or something like that today, with a clear blue sky.

I tweaked something in my back yesterday when I was working on the printer – I kept dropping screws and did something dumb when I went to pick them up. Yeesh.

I think I’m going to volunteer again at the church tomorrow afternoon for a little while. I like being able to help people, and I really like that it’s very close to home and I’m only going there once a week. Things might change, but for now I think I’m comfortable with how the setup is working.

I made oatmeal this morning for the first time in… five years? Seven? Anyway, I badly miscalculated how much the oatmeal would puff up, so I ended up eating a LOT of oatmeal for breakfast. I put in a spoon of brown sugar and a spoon of peanut butter and it was really quite tasty.

J and I have been watching The Good Place again now that the new season is out. They’ve really changed the formula this season but so far it’s been pretty good. I think the whole cast is good, but Ted Danson and D’Arcy Carden are pretty amazing.

So tomorrow I’m doing the volunteer stuff at the church, but beyond that I’m not sure what’s going on. Hopefully it’s nice out again.

Stay safe.

Talked To WG

Song: N/A

Mood: 7.5

Nightmares: 0

Ghosts: Several

Just a quick post – I’ve got a bunch of little things on the go and I’m hoping to get a few of them done before bed. So… bullet points!

  • Today was another good day.
  • I had a list of things I wanted to get done, including scheduling some appointments and making some calls. I actually got some things off my list.
  • Did some tidying and tried something different to get rid of mildew spots (which was quite successful).
  • Worked on some more electronics stuff.
  • Did some designing and ran the printer.
  • Got some writing done that was on my list of things to do.
  • Called J’s aunt and chatted with her for a little bit.
  • WG came by to return the chainsaw. He was in a bit of a hurry but we talked in the driveway for a few minutes. I was nervous before he came over – it’s been months since we last talked, and a couple of years since we talked face to face – but he was the same old WG and everything went very well. He’s crazy busy right now but we’re going to try and figure out a time when we can get together for dinner or to shoot the breeze or whatever. Sounds like the record store isn’t quite what it used to be, unfortunately.
  • No appointments tomorrow but I’m expecting a package, hopefully it shows up!

Stay safe.

What A Good Day!

Song: “On The Road Again” by Me First And The Gimme Gimmes

Mood: 9

Nightmares: 0

Ghosts: Few

Today was a great day. It feels SO NICE to be able to type that.

I had a half-decent sleep and woke up only twice that I can remember to check in on stuff. I even went back to bed after taking my morning medication so I could sleep off most of the usual morning dumbness before finally facing the day.

The only blip was that just like last time, right before FA and DM arrived, I started to sweat like crazy and could feel the panic starting to build. I finished what I was doing, grabbed two PRNs, and shuffled off to the bedroom to sit in front of the fan and do some grounding. Fortunately, this time I caught things quickly enough and was able to control the panic before it hit me like a wet blanket.

They arrived shortly after 2PM and as soon as I saw DM and FA standing there with smiles on their faces, my anxiety over the whole thing (J and I don’t usually have people over for fancy meals) pretty much disappeared. We gabbed for a couple of minutes, then moved to the living room, sat on the comfy chairs, and gabbed some more.

We talked about pretty much everything, then had a REALLY fantastic meal of ham, mashed potatoes, crock-pot dressing, veggies (yes I had some), and sauce. Dessert was an amazing cake – I’m not sure exactly what it’s called, but it had a swirly shape from the pan it was cooked in and it had cinnamon, vanilla, and cardamom in it. It’s one of the few cakes I’ve eaten slowly because I was thoroughly enjoying the flavours and was trying to figure out what they all were.

Then we went back to talking. Unfortunately, time went by way too quickly, and before we knew it, FA and DM were heading out to their car. Instead of feeling down like I usually do when guests leave, tonight I felt happy (and no, not because they were leaving). I was happy because we did something different today, yet everything went so very well… aaaaannnnd… we can do it again whenever we want! It doesn’t have to be a fancy holiday or something like that – we can get together for a big meal or a small meal or a quick meal or a chat-cook-chat-eat-chat-dessert-chat kind of event. That thought keeps popping into my mind and it makes me excited.

Granted, having a couple of friends over for lunch or supper once in a while probably isn’t much of a deal for most of you, but dammit – it is for me and I’m taking this as a good thing!

All of this wouldn’t have happened today, though, if J and I didn’t have such wonderful friends as we do in FA and DM. I think if everyone had friends like them, the world would be a much happier and friendlier place. Thanks for coming over, you guys, and thanks for always being there and being such good people! 🙂

No plans for tomorrow yet. I need to reschedule my Dr C appointment so I will probably give her a call or drop her an email. I may also do another hour or so of volunteering on Friday, and I might get together with FA somewhere in there to build a roost box or two. We shall see.

Jeebus… I hope I fell half as good tomorrow as I do right now!

Stay safe.

I Wasn’t Expecting That

Song: N/A

Mood: 7

Nightmares: 0

Ghosts: Several

The last few days have been… interesting. We got walloped by an early winter storm. When I went to Dr W’s office on Wednesday, it was dark and cloudy with a cold drizzle. I still wore shorts and a t-shirt – got a few odd looks from all the people in their jackets, but I’m used to being one of the last in fall and first in spring to wear shorts.

On Thursday, the rain turned to heavy, wet snow, and it kept snowing until Friday evening. Normally a heavy, sticky snow like that isn’t a huge problem but the leaves are still on the trees so the snow load on the branches was big enough to snap branches and take entire trees down all over the area. Every once in a while, J and I could hear a snap and a thump as another tree broke and part of it fell to the ground. It was pretty eerie. The trees, in turn, hit power lines in places, taking out the power for a LOT of people. We were lucky – our power flickered quite badly during the storm but never went out entirely. I think there are still something like 20000 people without power.

I think I was wrong about that little bird I mentioned the other day. As the day went on, there were more of them sheltering near the house where there wasn’t much snow. I put out some sunflower seeds and crushed peanuts for them (still thinking that it’s better to be miserable on a full belly), and when I checked later every last crumb had been eaten. J spoke to her mom (who lives several hours away) and it sounded like they had the same little birds, so that made me feel a lot better about that one poor bird that was hopping around for a while there:

Little grey bird

Not a great picture, but anybody know what this bird is?

Today we had to go out to do a couple of things so I took a couple of pictures while we were out. I think it’s going to be a little while before everything is cleared up:

Fallen Tree

Fallen TreesThe good news is that it’s been keeping above freezing and the snow has been melting quickly and I don’t think it’ll be around much longer.

Dr C emailed me on Friday morning to let me know that due to the power problems, we’d have to reschedule our appointment. Watching vehicles trying to avoid fallen tree parts and getting stuck in the snow… I was kind of glad it worked out that way. I used to enjoy bopping around in the snow in the truck (4WD with good tires is pretty amazing), but not when I have to get somewhere, and also not when there’s stuff all over the place and other people needing to get places.

Other than that, it’s been a pretty quiet weekend. DM and FA are coming over tomorrow – J and I are really looking forward to hanging out and having a fancy meal with them. It’ll be a great time!

Stay safe.

Poor Little Bird

Song: N/A

Mood: 7?

Nightmares: 0

Ghosts Lots

I didn’t fall asleep on the couch last night, but I didn’t sleep all that well, either. I think it might be the weather change – I wore shorts and a tshirt to my appointment yesterday (I got a couple of strange looks), but what was supposed to stay as rain turned into quite a bit of snow that continued through today and is supposed to dump even more on us before the weekend is done.

It took me longer than usual to get going today, which was unfortunate because I was a little late for my second volunteer session at the church down the street. The person I’m working with is very pleasant and eager to learn, but I’m a little worried that she may be saying “yes I understand” when she may not completely. Still, things went pretty well and I hope that the work we’re doing is helping her out.

There was a cold-looking little bird sitting around our front step. He would run away when we got close but didn’t fly. With the wet snow and water everywhere, J and I felt bad for the little fella so we put out a little box and some sunflower seeds and peanut chunks. I figured if he had a broken wing then he was probably going to die over the next couple of days, but I’d rather he died with a full belly and a bit of shelter – you know, as comfortable as possible. I looked outside a little later and must’ve startled it because it took a couple of funny hops and flew at about knee height to the tree in the neighbour’s house across the street.

Speaking of trees, the wind and wet snow broke a non insignificant part of the tree. I called the city and they said it could be as much as two weeks before a crew comes out to pick it up. Not a big deal.

This evening, J and I watched the last episode of Chernobyl. We both enjoyed it quite a bit, but some of the machinations of the KGB and various Communist Party officials seemed like it had to have been played up for the camera. The summaries of the characters at the end of the show was pretty sobering.

Tomorrow I have an appointment with Dr C. I am not looking forward to going – with the snow we could get some water in the basement, or the roads could be bad… I know I said I was going to drive but I really don’t know if that’s going to happen. We will see.

I hope that bird is alright.

Stay safe.

Long Day

Song: N/A

Mood: 7

Nightmares: 0

Ghosts: Lots

I didn’t fall asleep on the couch last night, and strangely, I woke up today without a headache and feeling not too shabby at all. I woke up a few times last night for the usual stuff but I didn’t need to get out of bed and it wasn’t too difficult to get back to sleep.

It was very dark and gloomy today, and had that cold drizzle that felt like it could turn into snow at any moment. I puttered around in the house, set up another job on the printer, and listened to the airport traffic on the SDR.

I had an appointment with Dr W today. J’s aunt offered to give me a lift, which was really helpful and great of her. I enjoy our chats, and we had a good amount of time to talk during the drive. We got to Dr W’s office quite early because traffic was quite light (my appointment was before rush hour today), so we went to a nearby fancy restaurant for a coffee to use up some time.

Coffee and Fruitopia

I had a Fruitopia. I’m not sure what the flavour was other than “red”.

I wasn’t entirely comfortable in the restaurant but it was pretty quiet and the conversation was good, so it worked out.

My appointment wasn’t overly long today but by the time I got home I was pooped. I like Dr W and I’m glad he’s my psychiatrist, but I really wish his office hadn’t moved to where it is now. Oh well.

I don’t really know what happened this evening other than J and I hung out and watched another Chernobyl. Do not watch that show if you want to be in a good mood. Seriously.

Tomorrow I am going to volunteer for a little while at the church down the street. Hopefully it will go well.

Stay safe.

I Have No Idea What Day It Is

Song: “Dancing In The Moonlight” by Toploader

Mood: 7

Nightmares: 0

Ghosts: Lots

I didn’t sleep very well again last night but once again it’s mostly my fault because I fell asleep on the couch. I really need to get a handle on that. I used to have a little sign that I put on the couch that just said “GO TO BED”. I think I need to make another one.

Today was one of those days where I had to keep checking my phone to make sure of what day it was. It’s not that I think it’s a different day, it’s just that I have no idea what day it is. Not a big deal but I have some stuff going on this week and I wanted to make sure I didn’t miss it.

I was quite busy today, working on a few different projects. One (and possibly) two of the fans in the printer are wearing out. They’re both pretty small and it’s been my experience that larger fans tend to last longer. Someone already had the same problem and designed a new bottom/fan enclosure for the printer controller that uses two 120mm fans. The first part is printing now and should be done tomorrow afternoon.

It was really nice out today – sunny and warm for the most part. The weather is about to change, though, so I grabbed a shovel and dug out all the carrots and a good amount of the potatoes in the garden. The carrots were pretty stumpy but some of the potatoes turned out nice and big. There were a ton of worms in the soil, too, and I think that means that the garden is pretty healthy.

The clinic called today. I’m always wary when I see it on the call display but I answered it and it was good news – my GP got the results of my bone scan back and my bone density is well above average. This is fantastic, because now I can FINALLY pursue my dreams and become an MMA fighter.

All joking aside, I was pretty happy to hear about that. It’s nice to get good news.

Talked to my folks for a while today, they’re still recovering from their trip but are otherwise doing well. Not too much exciting going on there.

J and I have been watching the HBO Chernobyl series. I understand they made quite a few artistic decisions and created a couple of characters, but boy did they ever blanket the production with the whole faceless-dreary-and-worn-Soviet-bloc-concrete-and-steel-oppressive-hopelessness. Wow. It’s like the shot the whole thing on black and white film and then… left it like that. Nothing anywhere is new. I’ve found the carpet in the hotel to be fascinating. The pattern, the wear… I have no idea who found or made that carpet for the show but they should get an award.

I have a Dr W appointment tomorrow and a Dr C appointment on Friday. I may also volunteer at that nearby church for a bit on Thursday. We’ll see what happens.

Stay safe.

Need To Keep This Short

Song: N/A

Mood: 8

Nightmares: 1

Ghosts: Lots

Let’s see:

  • Weekend was good.
  • Fell asleep on couch last night, I really need to stop doing that because it messes up my sleep.
  • Today was alright in the morning but got much better as the day went on.
  • Lots of sounds outside today, very distracting.
  • FA reminded me of an ad-blocking system called Pi-hole ( I set it up and have been pretty pleased so far.
  • I might be volunteering tomorrow, not sure though.
  • Have a Dr W appointment on Wednesday and a Dr C appointment on Friday.
  • Making a lot of progress with some of my electronics projects.
  • Did some cleaning upstairs today, hauled two and a half bags of garbage out to the bin.

Stay safe.