Just a quick post tonight, I think.
I didn’t sleep all that well last night. No nightmares, but I found myself awake and worrying about things quite a bit. Most of it was the usual stuff, like the garage door or the stove, while there was some unusual stuff too, like worrying about some of the stuff I said during my last appointments with Dr C and Dr W. Silly things that they probably don’t even remember but I couldn’t turn off the worry tap.
Since I didn’t sleep all that well, it took me quite some time to get going this morning, and despite my best intentions, I spent far too much time sitting on the couch with my eyes closed, cursing myself for… sitting on the couch with my eyes closed. Eventually I managed to get moving but didn’t really accomplish an awful lot. I played around with some printing stuff and messed around with the Arduino and PIR sensor, but it felt like I wasn’t really getting anywhere with anything.
J got home and went outside to do some work in the yard. I made supper and after we ate, we talked for a bit and then did our own things for a while. J worked on more paperwork for my stuff. I feel very guilty about that – she’s been doing all the paperwork work since I got sick. I don’t really know what to say or do that could make up for all of the time she’s put in, scouring page after page of fine print.
We watched a Brooklyn Nine-Nine this evening and then J went to bed and I am here. I’ll probably be up for a little while yet but I’m not sure what I’ll do. I expect tomorrow will be more productive and better.