Not Looking Forward To Tomorrow

Song: “Mother’s Little Helper” by the Rolling Stones

Mood: 6

Nightmares: 0

I woke up at least four times last night to worry about one thing or another but I think I was able to get back to sleep after around fifteen or twenty minutes. I couldn’t get back to sleep after J left for work so I stared at the ceiling for a while before hauling myself out of bed.

My exercises went reasonably well today. I got interrupted by sounds a couple of times but it didn’t take too long to get back into what I was doing. I fit in three exposure sessions with the stove and it went pretty well. It’s definitely taking less time for my anxiety to drop. I also worked on the sheet that Dr P has me doing. I don’t know if it’s making any difference at anything but so far it’s been showing that there’s really no need for me to worry about things after I’ve checked them once. I just hope I can convince my brain that that’s true.

I went for my walk and was pretty shocked at how cold out it was. It’s April – I was not expecting -13C to happen right now. I’m still taking that other route because there’s still a long stretch of mirror-like ice down the path I used to take. Two houses have their downspouts draining onto the path and that’s where it’s frozen.

I listened to a lot of music today, turning it off only when I gave my parents a call. There have been no developments with my uncle who’s in the hospital, but he’s supposed to be getting his surgery tomorrow. I’ve got my fingers crossed that it goes well and they get ahead of the infection.

I also spent some time reading that biology book that J gave me a while ago. I kind of lost it for a while but went looking for it today and found it as well as the two other books in the series. The book so far has been a good read and I’m looking forward to finishing it and starting in on the other two.

I spent some time tidying up the kitchen today, too. Nothing too serious, just getting some dishes done and some general uncluttering.

After J got home, we had corned beef sandwiches (cut from a brisket) and salad for supper. The corned beef was so very tasty and had an almost buttery texture. Delicious.

J and I watched the last two episodes of Elementary season 5. That did NOT go the way I was expecting. I am now very much looking forward to season 6 (which hasn’t even aired yet, nevermind come out on DVD). We are trying to figure out what we’re going to watch next. There are lots of candidates.

What I am very much not looking forward to, however, is my appointment with Dr H tomorrow. I really don’t want to go, and I feel really guilty that J has to leave work to take me there. I’m also not looking forward to finding out why I had to redo a couple of tests before seeing the doctor. Dr H is quite competent and very friendly, but I really don’t want to go there and stammer for 15 minutes trying to tell her what’s going on.

Then I have Dr W on Wednesday and Dr P on Thursday. Going to be a busy week.

Stay safe.

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