Song: “Get Over You” by The Undertones
Mood: 6
Nightmares: 0
I woke up worrying a lot again last night and I couldn’t get back to sleep this morning so I didn’t get as much sleep as I’d hoped. When I finally gave up trying to get back to sleep I was quite groggy and felt pretty down. It took me a long time to get going this morning.
I had breakfast and went downstairs to do my exercises. They didn’t go well at all, and after about 20 minutes of trying, I gave up and put some Undertones on the record player, turned up the volume, and sat in the comfy chair in front of the speakers. I listened to the same side three times (side B of the 1979 re-issue) and it helped a lot.
After that, I went back and started my exercises again. I made some progress, although I had a lot of trouble concentrating and kept jumping whenever I’d hear something. Still, it went better than it had during my first attempt.
My mom called just as I was almost done so I answered the phone and had a chat with her. Sounds like my parents are planning a lot of renovations. She also had an update on my uncle – they’re having trouble getting ahead of the infection so he’s going to be losing his leg just below the knee. He’s in good spirits, though, so that’s good. Mom’s pretty worried about him, and I can’t blame her at all.
I listened to the Undertones again (same side, two more times) and then went upstairs. I sent a text to the local radio station, requesting “I Wanna Be Sedated” by The Ramones (I know it’s overplayed but it seems the only two Ramones songs they have are that and “Blitzkrieg Bop”, which is really overplayed) and had some lunch. I also started up the stove to work on the exposure again.
My request played on the radio (I seem to get lucky once every three or four times) and when it was done I turned off the stove and went outside for my walk. I didn’t bother checking the thermometer before I left and it was a lot colder outside than I was expecting. Lots of ice and even some snowflakes drifting around. I went back inside and put on a heavier jacket, then did my route.
After I got home, I turned the stove on again, put on some music, and got out the quadcopter. I calibrated the motors again, and then noticed there was newer firmware available, so I thought I’d update it and get the latest and greatest. The flash process went worked perfectly first time; unfortunately, I forgot to deselect this item:
So once the flashing was done and I powered it back up, it did nothing. It took me a couple of minutes to realize that I’d completely blown away the configuration, and once I figured it out I felt pretty dumb. That’s how it goes sometimes, I guess.
J got home while I was still playing with the configuration, so I put away my stuff and we sat down for supper. She stopped at the grocery store on the way home and bought a giant sandwich that we cut in half. It was pretty good, although six hours and a tooth brushing later, I can still taste the onion. Might have to take some of them out of there next time.
After supper, J and I hung out for a while and did our own thing for a while. Then we went downstairs to watch some Elementary. This season doesn’t have the same… I don’t know what to call it… “heart”? It’s still a good show but it feels a little empty. I also miss Alfredo, although Shinwell has been an interesting addition.
I have my Dr P appointment tomorrow, and I really don’t want to go. I like Dr P and trust him and he’s been fantastic, but it’s so difficult to go out there and work hard to focus on what he’s saying and trying to ignore what’s going on in my head so we can have a conversation and work on the things that are bothering me. It’s exhausting. But, if therapy was fun then I suppose everyone would be doing it and I’d never be able to get in to see anyone.
Stay safe.