It’s Been A Year

Song: “Hair of the Dog” by Nazareth

Mood: 6

Nightmares: 0

I woke up quite a few times last night. Thankfully, none of them were for nightmares, but I spent a lot of time worrying before I could get back to sleep. I fell asleep after J left for work but woke up again about 15 minutes later when the phone rang, and I couldn’t get back to sleep after that.

My exercises went reasonably well today. After I was good and settled, I started to notice a soft thumping sound coming from somewhere. At first I thought it was from the outside but after I got up and shuffled a couple of steps I discovered that the faucet in the laundry room was slowly dripping. I tightened the faucets and went back to what I was doing.

I did my walk this afternoon. Unfortunately, there were no friendly dogs (or unfriendly dogs, for that matter) along the way. I have been trying to keep from looking back at the house when I go out. It’s difficult so I try to hustle a bit to get around the corner so the house is out of view. I hope things get better quickly – I was thinking today about how fun it’ll be to go for a walk surrounded by a cloud of mosquitoes.

I worked on the exposure with the stove today and had the opportunity this evening to do it “for real” because I fried some eggs for supper. I’m afraid to say anything but I think it might be getting easier, and J wasn’t home this evening, either (which is why I was frying eggs for supper).

I spent some time today working on the quadcopter, and found a video that showed how to set up the various flight modes on the transmitter. I had initially planned to calibrate the motors but I made a lot of progress with the flight modes, and when I flip the switch the lights on the quadcopter change so I know it’s doing something. More progress!

Two parcels arrived in the mail today. In one of them were my new propellers:

And in the other was the new Thor movie. J and I are looking forward to that one – it’s supposed to be pretty good.

I noticed today that it’s been a year (well, technically a year and one day) since I started this blog. 363 entries, about a hundred thousand words. I’ve had a few other blogs over the years and I think I’ve put more effort into this one than all the others combined. It has been pretty therapeutic to jot down my thoughts and how my day went, and it’s useful to be able to go back and see how things have gone in the past. On bad days it is difficult to concentrate and write out what’s going on in my head, but I think it’s been worth it.

I am also incredibly grateful for all of the people who have helped me along over the past year. I’m pretty sure I’ve said this before but it bears repeating: I have been blessed with an amazing support framework of family, friends, and professionals. Everybody has been immensely supportive and helpful and I’ll never be able to put into words how much I appreciate you all sticking around while I’ve gone through ups and downs and peeled back various layers of crazy. I would not be here if it weren’t for your compassion, time, and patience. Thank you.

Tomorrow afternoon I go for some more blood tests. With luck, the lab will be as empty as it was last time.

Stay safe.