So, here we are – three days into 2020. So far it doesn’t feel too much different than 2019, but that’s okay. I haven’t been feeling all that great the last couple of days. Mostly headaches and nightmares (tent). I missed my Dr C appointment yesterday and didn’t make it to the church to volunteer today. But that’s okay because…
The holidays went very well. Much better than I’d hoped, actually. I wasn’t expecting disasters or anything like that, but I was pretty nervous about some things but it turned out the things I was worrying about never happened.
My sister, brother-in-law, and nephews visited for four days and it was wonderful! I was warned how much they’d grown so I wasn’t too surprised at that, but what shocked me was how they’ve matured – conversations with them are so much different now than they have been in the past, and we were talking about all kinds of things.
The gifts we got for the kids seemed to have gone over well, and my younger nephew asked me to show him how to use the microscope we got him so we spent quite a while going over it and looking at various stuff through it. Some algae, some goop, some cheek cells… even followed a little protist for a while as it swam and bumbled around.
I printed up some things for them, too, and it all seemed to be appreciated. Fishing rod holders and a lure for my brother-in-law, a hairband/clip organizer for my sister, and fall-down targets and an ammo holder for my nephew. As with pretty much everything else I print – if they don’t end up using them, that’s fine because I had fun figuring them out and printing them.
J and I used to be Christmas-y people but we haven’t really been into it all that much for years now, and since I got sick I don’t think we’ve even put up a tree. We weren’t planning on doing it this year, either, but since the kids were coming over we wanted to do something. So I figured what the heck, we’ll decorate a philodendron (I think it’s actually a pothos but we all call it a philodendron). I think it turned out rather well:
We got a couple of amused comments about it, and I don’t think anyone was particularly put off. The kids certainly didn’t care – there were presents for them under it, after all.
But the conversation and jokes were the highlight of the holidays for me. I got to have good conversations with both my sister and brother-in-law, as well as the kids. DM and FA came by one afternoon too (my sister knows FA from a long time ago) and the eight of us talked and laughed and had pizza and… well, it was a wonderful time. It was fantastic to have so many of my favourite people all together like that, and I hope we get to do it again soon – and with even more of my favourite people!
There was only enough room for five people in the car, so I stayed home while J took my sister and her gang to the airport. After they backed down the driveway and rolled down the street, I was amazed at how quiet the house was when there weren’t six people (including a twelve and nine year old) there. It felt wonderful that things had gone so well and the things I’d worried about since mid-November hadn’t happened. I’m still amazed at how well things went.
I’ve been sad a few times since they left. J and I were pooped and the house needed a good cleaning, but I really enjoyed hanging out with my sister and her family and I miss them.
I also feel guilty that the only way that I see my family or friends now is if they come and visit. I don’t do the yearly resolutions thing, but something I really want to do this year is get to where I can finally be the one going out and doing the visiting. I have some ideas and I want to talk to Dr C and Dr W about them, but I’ve got my fingers crossed that this will be the year I finally ring someone else’s doorbell. That’s, uh… not a euphemism.
For now, though, I’m back to puttering and working on things to keep myself busy and my mind and hands working during the day. So far, so good.