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Mood: 6
Nightmares: 1
When I got up this morning, I went to see how my fish was doing. Fortunately, he survived the night and I caught him nibbling at some food. Hopefully he’s adapting well and will live a long, happy life. He’s got a three gallon tank all to himself so there’s plenty of room for him to wander around. I may add a couple of cleaner shrimp just to help keep things tidy (and they’re amusing, too).
I did some of my exercises today and spent some time just watching the new fish. It’s a lot more graceful and slow-moving than the tetras in the main tank are. It’s quite relaxing to just watch him wander around the tank, actually.
I heard from my mom this morning. My aunt and uncle stayed at their place last night and my folks took the opportunity to let them know what was going on with me. They said that J and I had their full support and if there was anything they could do to let them know. That’s pretty much all of my relatives now and every single one has been very supportive. I’m very lucky to have family that understands and cares about what’s going on. It’s a huge relief.
My Dr P appointment was a little more difficult than usual but for a very good reason. We’re starting to talk about values and how people see themselves. This is something that I’ve been having a HUGE problem with since I left work so I’m looking forward to making progress in this area. Figuring out my values I think is key to finding the answer about how I can be a good person. I’m usually not excited about therapy but I’m really looking forward to working on this. Dr P gave me some homework to do that we’re going to go over during our next session.
I also asked Dr P about how we can tell whether our thoughts can hurt us or not. His response was that thoughts can’t hurt us – events and actions can. For example, me worrying that the house will get broken into doesn’t mean anything is more or less likely to happen. It’s just a thought. It took me a little while to wrap my head around it but it makes sense now. Hopefully it will still make sense tomorrow morning…
This evening, J and I are going to watch some more Community. We’re still on the second season (for the third time now I think) and it’s still making me laugh. Laughing is good.
Stay safe.