Today has been a good day. I was excited about going on a pass so I didn’t get to sleep as early as I’d hoped but the sleep I did get was good. I often sleep on my side and I’m finding that my hips are a little uncomfortable when I wake up. I think it’s the hospital mattress but since I’m sleeping at home tonight, I’ll sleep on my side and see what happens.
There was no group this morning but group this afternoon was a guest speaker who spoke about the local Anxiety Disorders Association, types of anxiety, and the services they offer. It was a very good session – lots of information and good handouts.
My appointment with Dr W went quite well too. Since I’m doing pretty well we didn’t make any medication changes, but sometime soon he’d like to start reducing some of the sedating medications I’m on (quetiapine, haloperidol, zopiclone, and lorazepam), which I have no problem with. I’ve been very lucky with side effects so far but with recent experiences I think my brain doesn’t like it when I take medications away so we’ll have to chip away at it very slowly.
J stopped by the hospital at about 6PM and we went home. It was very good to walk in the door with her and start getting used to being home. I haven’t been away for very long (I think today is day 7) but J has accomplished a lot of things while I was away. The garden is planted, two new trees have been planted, the basement has been tidied up to the point of almost being unrecognizable, and she’s arranged for the air conditioner guys to come over tomorrow to replace our very weary ancient unit.
We talked for a while and then went outside to water the plants. After that, we sat on the deck for a while and enjoyed the evening air. It was very nice, just sitting outside and talking. Unfortunately, a bit of anxiety started to creep in on me but it was time to take my nighttime medications so hopefully they’ll help. It’s not too bad – just a little bit of nerves – but I want this pass to go really well. If it doesn’t, that’s okay – that’s why I’m doing the passes instead of being discharged. They’re a good test.