Getting Better I Think

Song: “Louie Louie” by the Kingsmen

Mood: 6

Nightmares: 0

I’m not sure what happened but I got almost no sleep last night. I was staring at the walls in the dark, listening to my heart beat. I got up a few times to try and “reset” going back to sleep but it didn’t seem to help. As a result, it was difficult to haul myself out of bed this morning and I’ve been yawning all day. Hopefully I’ll be able to sleep tonight.

I watched another episode of Knight Rider today and played around with some electronics, which went pretty well. I wasn’t doing anything in particular – just sifting through the parts and playing a bit with a PIC microcontroller – but it was good to poke around the bench for a while.

My Dr P appointment today went well. It helped a lot that I was feeling better today than I was last week. We’ve moved away from working on my mood and towards setting exposure goals that should help me get more comfortable with being away from the house. One of the things we went over was the SMART technique for setting goals, where S stands for Specific, M stands for Measurable, A stands for Achievable, R stands for Realistic, and T stands for Time-based. It helped me to set up a reasonable goal for this week – walk to the local grocery store three times over the next seven days.

I think I can do that, and I think it’s a lot more practical for me than going to Walmart right now.

Another thing we worked on was how to incorporate mindfulness into more of the things that I do. It turns out that it’s going to be a little easier than I thought for a lot of things. Paying attention to what I’m doing and the things I’m feeling and experiencing in the present is a big part of it. I’ve probably said this before but I have found mindfulness exercises and techniques to be very helpful in a lot of situations.

Tomorrow I’m supposed to get together with FA. We’re not sure what we’re going to do but I’m pretty sure that whatever it is will involve another meal at the burrito restaurant.

Speaking of getting together with FA, I can’t believe the week has gone by so quickly. It seems like only a day or two has gone by since we were last wandering through the hardware store. It’s been three days since WG and I went record shopping. It’s weird how time works.

Stay safe.

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