Today Was A Good Day

Song: “Mr. Giant Man” by James Last

Mood: 8

Today was a good day. I didn’t sleep particularly well – woke up from nightmares twice, I think – but things are pretty good.

I got together with WG this morning at around 10AM and we went to the record store, drove around a bit and stopped at two thrift stores (one that smelled really bad) to see what they had for records, and then went out for lunch at an Indian restaurant that was really good. WG had a lot more luck with records today than I did. I found quite a few promising ones but they when I looked at the vinyl they were all in really bad shape.

On the upside, WG gave me two records that he had duplicates of – a Bob & Doug Mackenzie album and James Last’s Voodoo-Party. I’ve been looking for Voodoo-Party for a couple of years now so I’m really excited to finally have it. I have a feeling that it will be spending a lot of time on the turntable over the next while.

After we were done lunch, we headed back to WG’s place and he showed me how his gardens are coming in. He’s got three raised gardens and some other plants in pots beside the gardens. Lots of tomatoes and beans, and one little pepper plant that’s growing a HUGE pepper. I don’t know how it’s holding itself up.

WG and I talked for a little while longer and then I headed out. I got home shortly before 3PM and plopped down on the couch because I was pooped.

Just as my eyes were starting to close, J got home. I went outside and helped her unload the car and then we talked for a bit. She had a good weekend with her folks and the highway mostly cooperated with her. I was very happy that she was back – video chats are great but they’re not even close to the real thing. After she had a drink and built up some steam, she went outside to put in some plants that she brought back with her.

After that we had a light supper and she brought me up to speed with the news of the world. I try to stay away from news sites so J sorts through them when she reads them and tells me about the interesting or good stories. I then went outside and watered the garden.

It’s been a good (but quite tiring) day. Hanging out with WG was fun and I’m noticing that it’s getting easier to do some things without getting too anxious or panicking. Maybe it was just because I was in a good mood, but I’m going to put a check in the “win” box for today.

I don’t have anything scheduled for tomorrow so I think I’m going to try to catch up on laundry and maybe go for another drive around the area. I don’t think it’s supposed to be quite as warm tomorrow so maybe I’ll spend some time in the garage. We’ll see.

Stay safe!

And Sunday Comes To A Close

Song: “Octopus’s Garden” by the Beatles

Mood: 7

The weekend is almost over and it has gone by better than I’d hoped. I’ve spent more time by myself than I have since getting out of the hospital, and, although I miss J a lot, I’m doing okay.

I also went out twice. The first time was yesterday evening when I went to pick up some groceries; the second time was this afternoon when I went out for a drive to see if I could push any of my limits. Unfortunately, I wasn’t able to but it was still good to get out for a bit instead of sitting in front of the TV.

I spent a lot of time doing my exercises and meditating. I had some trouble clearing my head today but eventually managed to calm it down enough.

I did a fair amount of writing, too. I’ve got two stories in the works right now and I’m having trouble concentrating on them enough to stick with working on one but I’m making progress.

Season three of Battlestar Galactica was my video of choice this weekend. I burned through most of the season but I think I fell asleep through part of it. (A trial? Seriously? Everybody on the ship carries a gun and hates him – why didn’t someone just shoot him and be done with it?)

I also had a good chat with my folks both yesterday and today which was great.

I spoke with WG this afternoon and we’re on for tomorrow morning. We’re going to go record shopping and then we’re going to have lunch. I’m really looking forward to it.

What I’m looking to the most, though, is J getting home safe and sound. I will probably be out with WG when she gets home but it will be so nice to see her again. She hasn’t been gone for long and she’s not very far away but I sure do miss her.

Stay safe!

A Pretty Decent Day

Song: “Lily the Pink” by the Irish Rovers

Mood: 7

Today was a pretty good day. I relaxed a bit, worked outside a bit, and accomplished a few things that have been on my list for a little while now.

It took less effort than normal for me to get up and go outside. I think the nice weather helped – it’s been a little cooler the last few days – and once I got my momentum going, it felt good to be on my feet and doing stuff.

I also played around with a Raspberry Pi, but I was having trouble getting it to do what I wanted and started getting a little frustrated so I abandoned it. I used to really enjoy playing with that stuff but I just can’t get into it the same way anymore. Maybe I need to spend more time with it to help get back into that stuff.

J went shopping after work so she got home a little later than normal. She picked supper up on the way home and we had a little celebration for the good news we’ve had lately. We also watched some Futurama. Some of the jokes haven’t held up very well but it’s still a great show.

I’m trying to figure out what to do with my aquarium. Right now it has a half-dead plant and a healthy Marimo moss ball in it. I’m not sure what’s killing the plant – there doesn’t appear to be anything else in the tank. I should probably grab some water and put it under the microscope to see if it’s teeming with protists or something.

J is heading out tomorrow afternoon and will be back Monday. I’ve got a bunch of things queued up to do to keep me occupied. Here’s what’s on the list so far:

  • Movies
  • Welding
  • Writing
  • Start reading a new book
  • Colouring
  • Going for a drive to see if I can push my boundaries a little farther
  • Cleaning around the house

There’s no shortage of things for me to do.

Stay safe!

Kept Busy Today

Song: “Ballroom Blitz” by Sweet

Mood: 6.5

I slept pretty well last night. Woke up a couple of times but only once was because of a nightmare. I woke up after J had left for work and had breakfast.

Around 10:30 I got a call from WG saying that he was buried at work and couldn’t get together today. It was a bit of a bummer – I was really looking forward to hanging out – but that’s okay. We’re still on for going to the record store on Monday. He has the day off, too, so hopefully I may be able to buy him lunch. I really appreciate him taking the time to meet me or pick me up so we can hang out, and it would be nice to be able to buy him lunch.

So instead of going out, I decided to keep myself busy. I did some writing in the morning, did my exercises, and in the afternoon I mowed the front lawn and did some welding. Those new 7018AC rods work great! They leave a nice, consistent, shiny bead, and make me look like I’m much better at welding than I am. The welding jacket that J got me for Christmas works really well at shielding from heat as well as sparks, too.

I got some more good news today. I got a call from my mom saying that my uncle is doing very well and may be discharged tomorrow, and I got a call from J saying that her meeting today went very well and it looks like she’s in line for a promotion!

J is thinking of going to her parents’ place for two nights over the coming weekend. That will be the longest that I’ve been by myself since I last got out of the hospital. I don’t foresee any problems and am looking forward to seeing how things go. The good thing is J is just a phone call away, and so is the Crisis Centre (if things go bad). Like I said, I don’t expect any problems. I’m already putting together a list of things that I want to do.

I’m still feeling anxious today but it’s much better than it was yesterday, most likely because of the good news about J and my uncle.

Stay safe!

Still Anxious

Song: “Sweet Emotion” by Aerosmith

Mood: 5

My anxiety from earlier today is still bothering me. I slept quite well last night, with no nightmares that I can remember, but woke up feeling anxious. The good news is that I’ve talked to my mom and she has heard more good news about my uncle, but I don’t think I’ll be able to completely relax about it until after he’s home and back to his regular routine.

J has her meeting tomorrow morning so it’s not too much longer until we find out about that. She’s expecting it to be good news (and I am, too) but there’s a little part of my brain that’s yelling CAUTIONCAUTIONCAUTION and I can’t ignore it.

My Dr W appointment went quite well today. Since we’re not changing my medication around right now we’ve gone to an appointment every two weeks, with the option of calling him at any point and getting in to see him earlier if needed. I told him about the things that were bothering me today and he said that normal people get nervous about that kind of stuff, and if I wasn’t nervous at all it would probably be a bigger problem.

I’m still thinking about work, too. I wish I could stop, even just for a day.

WG and I are supposed to get together tomorrow morning. It will be really good to see him again. I think we’re going to check out another thrift store to see if there are any records worth buying. It’ll also be nice to chat, too – he always has interesting stories to tell.

I hope that I have another good sleep tonight and get lots of good news tomorrow. That should help me kick this anxiety.

Stay safe!

Very Anxious Today

I’m really anxious today. I think part of it has to do with my uncle’s surgery and recovery, and part of it is about J’s job. She’s got a meeting tomorrow with the head honchos and I hope it’ll be good news but I’m not sure. Around two years ago, there was a major bloodletting at the office, with half the people being walked out of the building so I don’t exactly trust her managers. She’s very good at her job, though, so I’m sure it’ll be good news.

That doesn’t keep me from worrying, though.

I have an appointment with Dr W this afternoon so I’ll be able to tell him about it then. My first appointment with Dr P is scheduled for next Wednesday.

Stay safe!

The Week Is Moving Along

Song: “On The Road Again” by Me First and the Gimme Gimmes

Mood: 6

The week has gone pretty well so far. I heard this afternoon that my uncle had some scheduled surgery and it went well, which was fantastic to hear. He’s already been through a lot but he’s a very positive person and I think that helps.

I didn’t get together with WG on Monday. My stomach and I had an argument and I lost so I called and cancelled for this week. Hopefully we can get together next week to go to the record store.

I watched Westworld (the old movie) yesterday. It was pretty good but every decade has a particular kind of cheese and the 1970s really shows up in this movie. Not the end of the world, but yeah – if it comes back to the theatres on some retro night, don’t bother bringing the kids. I think they’ll be bored.

I’m doing battle with a wasp nest that’s hidden under the driveway (I think we found out when one of the wasps stung J). I put some powder down the other day and after a day or two the wasp traffic stopped, but it’s starting up again and it looks like they’ve made another entrance to their nest. I put down some more powder again this evening. Hopefully that’ll work – if not, I’ll see if we have any of that foaming wasp nest killer stuff.

A couple of days ago, J brought home a plastic bottle with a water sample from a watercooler. I took a look at three samples under the microscope and there was a ton of stuff in it. Some clear stuff that I figure is just lint or something, some greenish-brown stuff, some thick opaque stuff, and something that looks like it may have been alive at some point. She didn’t drink from the water cooler and I think that’s a good move on her part.

I spent some time today tinkering at my electronics bench. I’m amazed at how much of it I’ve forgotten. I’m hoping to pick it up again, maybe try to build something useful. We’ll see.

It’s really nice out this evening. If it’s like this tomorrow I think I will be going for a motorcycle ride around the neighbourhood.

I’ve been anxious all day. I think a lot of it has to do with my uncle, but I’m not a hundred percent sure. I tried listening to it to see if I could tease any more information out of it but had no luck.

Stay safe!

The End Of A Good Weekend

Song: “Little Arrows” by Leapy Lee

Mood: 7.5

The weekend is almost over but it was good. I had trouble sleeping on Friday night (and a particularly nasty nightmare) but last night I slept very well and don’t remember having any bad dreams at all.

It was too hot for me to be comfortable outside – around 32C today – so I spent most of my time inside. I think I only went out to water the plants, and it was far too hot to put on jeans and my welding jacket to try out those new welding rods.

Today, J and I spent a lot of time listening to records. It was nice to have her there listening to them too.

Tomorrow morning I may be getting together with WG to go to the record store. I hope it works out – the record shopping is fun and I really enjoy hanging out and chatting with him.

Well, this is going to be a short post – my medication has kicked in and I’m having trouble putting a couple of words together in the right order. I hope you all had a good weekend and that this week goes well!

Stay safe!

A Hot Summer Day

Song: “Those Were The Days” by Mary Hopkin

Mood: 8

I slept pretty well last night and feel pretty well today. No nightmares that I can remember, which is really good. Today was very warm – up around 30C – and muggy. I spent most of it indoors, thankful for air conditioning.

I called Dr P today to schedule my first appointment with him, and immediately made a bit of a fool out of myself. As we were talking, I was writing the details on a little whiteboard we have on the fridge. When I went to recite the info back to him, I accidentally read from another appointment listed on the whiteboard. Even after he corrected me, I think I wrote down the wrong time. I left him a voicemail apologizing and asking if he could call me back with the correct time. I’m sure I made a great first impression…

I listened to quite a few James Last records. I’ve got a couple of his Non-Stop Dancing albums and I’m discovering that he either has a couple of favourite songs that he reused or his band is very good at playing the same songs over several albums. I’m not complaining (they’re good songs), it’s just something I noticed. The music is cheesy at best but I find it’s really good to relax to.

I puttered around with one of my Raspberry Pi boards today. I set up an Internet radio player, which went really well, but then I ran into trouble when I tried to find Internet radio stations to play on it. Most of the stations around here have what seem to be music streams that don’t work with the software I’m using. A couple of years ago I did the same thing and had no trouble finding streams from all over the world… I guess stations want to have more control over who listens to their stuff and things like commercials.

J and I finished watching the new version of True Grit this evening. It’s a great movie – everything is done wonderfully and the acting is great, particularly Hailee Steinfeld and Jeff Bridges. We haven’t seen the John Wayne version but if we come across it I think we’ll probably watch it, too.

After supper, we headed out to do a little bit of shopping. We stopped by the hardware store so I could pick up a pack of 7018AC rods – and these ones are DEFINITELY 7018AC. Says on the box and on the rods, too. I’m looking forward to giving them a try once it’s a little cooler out.

After the hardware store, we wandered over to Walmart and while J was picking up some stuff I rummaged through the $5 DVD bin and found a couple more westerns (or western-ish) movies for us to watch. One of them is Westworld, which I’ve wanted to see since I was a kid but am a little worried that there’s going to be too much 1970s schlock in it. At least it’s got Yul Brynner in it – he was great in the first two Magnificent Seven movies.

I think there are two things that I haven’t mentioned in a while – my triops experiment (which failed horribly) and the garden (which is going great). There are already tomatoes hanging from the plants and the potato plants are knee-high. The thyme, basil, and dill seem to be mostly doing well, and the onions are coming in nicely, too. And all of this is inside a 4×8′ box. The garden was my idea but I ended up in the hospital so J and my mother-in-law did the planting (thanks you guys!) and things are going great.

It’s supposed to be 31C tomorrow and 32C on Sunday. I do not think I will be doing much outside this weekend.

Stay safe!

Last Appointment With Dr C

Today was my last appointment with Dr C. We went over a lot of the things we’ve worked on over the last year and a half, and she’s putting together a file for my new therapist, Dr P.

I’m a little sad and a little nervous about what the future will bring. Dr C introduced Dr P and I about a month ago and he seems like a pretty good fellow. Hopefully we make a good team like Dr C and I did.

Thanks again, Dr C – I appreciate everything you’ve done for me more than I can express. I wish you the best of luck!

Stay safe!