Song: “Vacation” by The Go-Gos
Mood: 5.5
Nightmares: 3
More nightmares and one panic attack overnight. I’m not enjoying this very much and I’m hoping that it fades into the background again very soon.
I had an appointment early this morning with the surgeon who fixed me up a month ago. J dropped me off at the front door and I was able to find the right place easily enough (which was kind of surprising because I was still mostly zombie). The good news is things seem to be coming along well. The bad news is that it’s probably going to be a while yet before everything is back to being just like new. Fair enough. The best news is that – including the appointment – I think I spent less than ten minutes in the building before I was back outside, calling a cab.
J was the first to notice this stuff, but since she mentioned it, I’ve noticed that the cabs around here seem to be a lot cleaner and tidier. No papers stuffed into every crack, no weird coloured splotches across the seats, and generally identifiable smells. I wonder if they’re worried about the ridesharing companies and are trying to fix up their image. If that’s the case, I think they’re doing a pretty good job.
I got an unexpected text from FA this morning, asking if I wanted to do lunch. That sounded delightful, but between the bad sleep and the medication, I needed a little while to lie down. Fortunately, that worked well with her schedule. I even had a chance to fire off a round of texts before she arrived a little before noon. We had delicious, delicious burritos, talked about all kinds of things, and played a game of Carcassonne. It’s been a LONG time since we did that, and it was a lot of fun. FA has an interesting (and often unconventional) perspective on a lot of stuff, and it’s interesting to get her take on a topic or event. I’m really glad she was able to make some time in her really busy schedule to stop in and hang out. If you’re reading this, thank you!
After FA left, I did a bit of writing and then started thinking about my upcoming Dr P appointment. Part of me really doesn’t want to go, but I would like to get clarification on the stuff we talked about over the previous two sessions.
Before I got too wrapped up in thinking about that stuff, I managed to short-circuit it by forcing myself to think about DA’s cabin security problem. I fed the problem into my brain and didn’t try to stop the crazies from running with it. It only took a couple of minutes to come up with a list of over 30 ideas, some thoughts on how to make them, and ideas about how I would circumvent them. A while later I jotted down another ten or so other ideas. I think I’m going to try to pick a couple of the cheaper/easier/more practical ideas and see if they could possibly be useful.
J and I had a good time hanging out this evening. We watched a couple more episodes of Parks and Recreation. It’s a great show.
Tomorrow I have an appointment with Dr P. Like I mentioned earlier, I really don’t want to go but I think I have to – I need to know if I’m misinterpreting something or getting all wound up about nothing. The good news is, I don’t have anything else going on other than that appointment so I’ll have a lot of time to think both before and after the appointment.
Stay safe.