This has been a good long weekend. J had Friday and Monday off so we got some stuff done around the house and had lots of time to hang out. We had time to watch a couple of episodes of Columbo, and J made a really good batch of chicken soup from scratch.
Last week I’d been working on ERP with the stove. It turned out to be easier than I’d expected so I called Dr P and suggested if I could work on something more difficult. I’ve been working on the garage door since Friday, with mixed results. Out of the eleven attempts so far, I was able to keep from checking for longer than 100 minutes four times. For the most part it’s getting easier, though, which is a good sign.
It’s a lot easier when I do things to distract myself instead of just sitting there and thinking about it. Anything from talking with J, to listening to music, to watching people do dumb things on YouTube helps keep the urge to check at bay. I hope the work I’m doing now pays off when I next go to leave the house.
I’m not sure what I’ll work on next. Possibly the door locks, but I’ll have to think about it. It would be wonderful if whatever happened to me over the last couple of weeks with my OCD decided to go away on its own. Way back when I was first seeing Dr C, she said that I was suffering from an episode. Perhaps that’s what’s going on now. If that’s the case, do I need to worry that things are going to get rough every once in a while forever? I guess the other side of that coin is that the ERP seems to be easier this time around, so maybe it keeps getting easier and takes less time.
J is back at work tomorrow so I’ll be by myself. I’m going to work on the garage door again and probably do some chores around the house. I may try going for a walk around the block. Last time I tried I couldn’t do it but maybe with the ERP work I’ve been doing things will be different.