Song: “Stayin’ Alive” by the Bee Gees
I spent most of the day on the couch again. I just couldn’t muster the oomph to do anything.
My Dr P appointment was a little more difficult than normal. We spent a lot of time talking about work (which is on my mind all the time) and how I can motivate myself to keep myself busy every day. For now, I need to print up a weekly calendar, list what I’ve done on it, and take it to my next appointment. The idea is that I’ll be a little more motivated to do something if I write it down and show it to someone else.
J got some good news today – news of a promotion at work! I’m very happy for and proud of her, she really worked hard to get where she is. Congratulations!!
There have been a lot of sirens outside today. They still bother me a lot. Dr P suggested that I try some exposure and listen to the sound of sirens to try and desensitize myself to them. I’m not keen on doing it but I will give it a try. I know the exposure and response prevention therapy I did with Dr C worked quite well so hopefully this will work too. I just really don’t want to listen to sirens.
It sounds like my parents will be coming in next weekend. It will be great to see them again but I feel a little guilty that they have to do all of the travelling nowadays. Going to visit them used to be something I could do on a whim – even on the motorcycle.
Thinking of that reminds me of Christmas and how everyone is going to have to adjust their schedules and the way we normally do things because of me. Again. Hopefully this will be the last year that this happens.