Song: N/A
Mood: 6.5
Nightmares: 0
Ghosts: Lots
Quite some time ago – before I started this site – one of the problems that I was working on with Dr C was how my OCD was impacting things like my email at work. It would take 20 minutes to write a sentence, and sometimes hours to put together an email that was only a paragraph or two long. I would agonize over every letter and punctuation mark, worried that I would upset someone or that there would be a mistake (or mistakes) that would make me look like an idiot. We worked on that for quite a while, and I still work hard to make sure that when I write something, I go over it once and only once and then send/post/print it.
With that in mind, I try to avoid going back over my posts during the day and I try to just give them a quick look when I’m writing the next one to make sure that I’m not repeating myself too badly. So… I had no idea what happened to my post last night until just a few minutes ago. I remember starting up LibreOffice and typing… something, and then that really thick, heavy feeling I sometimes get from my evening medications settled over me. Beyond that is just static with a brief interlude of me walking around the kitchen, rubbing my face. I’m a little amused and a little embarrassed.
What happened yesterday during the day was I had an appointment with Dr H. Things went pretty good for the most part: routine bloodwork was good, my cholesterol is down and my kidneys and liver are doing just fine, she’s sending me to get the nerves in my right arm tested (oooo electrical shocks, my favourite), and she gave me directions as to what to do for exercise. Then we talked a bit about what feels like a chest cold that’s come and gone for the last month and a half or so. Between that, my past history, and some other things, she was worried that I had blood clots in my lungs again. It was kind of weird seeing her look down at the desk and mutter, “I don’t want to miss that if that’s what’s happening”. We talked about allergies and asthma, but in the end she sent me to get some tests done immediately so I went next door to the hospital to get them done.
About an hour after J and I got home, the phone rang. It was Dr H’s nurse, calling to tell me that the tests were negative and there weren’t any clots. That was a relief, but I honestly didn’t think that clots were the problem because they felt a lot different. Thing is, I started noticing the weirdness in my chest around the same time the snow disappeared and all that dust and dead leaves and crap were blowing around in the air. So… I now get to go for a lung function test and Dr H is prescribing me a puffer.
So yes – there’s nothing to worry about.
I’m still keeping myself busy and thinking during the day. I find that I seem to hit a bit of a lull in the evening and I want to close my eyes, but I perk up again a little while later. Since I cleaned the printer after the most recent disaster, it’s been working better than it has in months. I didn’t realize that it wasn’t working as well as it had been, so I think I’m going to give it a really good once-over once a week.
I’m also still playing with electronics, did some sewing, and had the microscope out again. J has been incredibly patient with my hobby crap slowly expanding to cover every horizontal surface in the house (thanks sweetie!!!) and I think she humours me sometimes when I babble on about stuff I’m trying to do, but I think/hope she likes that I’m using my brain again instead of sitting around watching Knight Rider or counting my toes over and over.
More of the items I’ve ordered have trickled in. I’m the happy owner of a little monocular spyglass thing (much less cumbersome when spying on the neighbours), a box of M3 screws and nuts, a handful of PIR sensors, and some sticky silicon rubber pads. I kind of like how it’s showing up one or two things a week – I’m not desperate for any of the stuff so it’s kind of like a surprise when something shows up.
That bluetooth stereo thing that J got for her work anniversary has been working really well – much better than the old set of computer speakers I put out a long time ago. I really enjoy the music and it helps relax me, motivate me, drowns out some of the sounds/noises that bother me, and it just feels good to listen to.
Hrm… I’ve kind of been all over the place here. Let’s see… today went pretty well. Lots of printer stuff, some spray sealant (blurrrgh), and watching as a pair of generic AA batteries slowly discharges to 2.0V. It’s been, uh, four days now? Something like that. Down to 2.1V, hopefully tomorrow they’ll be done. Oh, and two parcels were waiting at the local post office so J picked me up after work and we went to pick them up. I can’t remember if I said it in a text or in a blog post, but I started wearing shorts the other day and I’ll keep wearing them until October. Well, today almost made me change my mind. It was pretty brisk out there.
J is heading out to visit her folks for the weekend (have a good trip, sweetie!!!), so I’ll be batchin’ it. I am prepared, though – I have a big list of things (both fun and not so fun) to do, good music to listen to, some shows to watch, and, just in case, I have some emergency cash on hand just in case the pizza guy’s mobile debit/credit machine doesn’t work.
I could probably keep babbling on but it’s midnight so I should finish this up. Have a good night and a good day tomorrow, everyone!
Stay safe (WTH is “Syau”???).