Song: “Home for a Rest” by Spirit of the West
Mood: 7.5
Nightmares: 0
J had today off so we had a long weekend. We had a good time and got a lot of things done around the house. I introduced her to Carcassonne and we both enjoyed playing. I think we’re going to pick that one up. We also played some Blokus:
We also watched a couple of episodes of Columbo. We’re deep into the 1989/1990 episodes and I can’t remember most of them. J says that we watched them a couple of years ago but I was pretty sick at the time. I probably slept through them.
I put in an order for a new motor and 20 propellers for the quadcopter. The motor should be here in a week or two but the propellers are going to take a lot longer. I’ve played with the quadcopter a couple of times and the bad motor sometimes starts up just fine but most of the time it just quivers a bit in both directions. I checked the wires and they seem fine. I hope the new motor fixes the problem – otherwise it’s probably the controller and I’m not sure how to fix that. We’ll see.
I went for my walks outside every day except for yesterday. On Saturday J came with me. We walked to the local park and back, and that wasn’t too bad (with J around everything seems easier). Today I took a different route and walked a bit further and didn’t enjoy it at all, particularly once I lost sight of the house. It doesn’t feel like it’s getting any easier.
I’ve also done some ERP with the garage door; it hasn’t gone well. Every time I’m in the kitchen I can’t help but brush the curtain out of the way and check the door. It has four panels and I have to count all of them as well as look at the rubber bumper at the bottom and make sure it’s flush with the ground. Even typing this out made me go and check again just now – it’s very difficult to ignore. On the upside, I don’t think anything else is slipping.
I’m still feeling jumpy but my anxiety has gone down since Friday afternoon and it’s been easier to do my exercises. That’s good because when I don’t do them (or they go poorly) it impacts the rest of my day quite a bit.
My nightmares have backed off considerably. I had one on Saturday night but none last night again. I’m still waking up a few times but it’s a lot easier to get back to sleep when I’m not panicking. I hope this keeps up.
Stay safe.