Song: “Get Over You” by the Undertones
Mood: 7.5
Nightmares: 1
It took me a long time to fall asleep last night. My evening medications used to kick the heck out of me and I’d be falling asleep on my feet, but that doesn’t seem to happen anymore. I’m not complaining, just noticed the difference. I’m a little tired again today but it’s not too bad.
On the upside, today was another good day. I didn’t have any trouble keeping myself busy which I must admit I’m really enjoying. It’s so much better this way than only being able to think about going back to bed or sitting on the couch. It feels good to sit down somewhere because I want to, rather than because I fell like I have to.
My mindfulness and worry exercises went very well today. I didn’t have any trouble clearing my mind and it was easy to focus my attention on the present instead of worrying about the past or future. I’m very grateful that I’ve been taught mindfulness exercises – they resonate well with me. I think I will continue to work mindfulness into my day for the rest of my life.
I listened to some more records today. I’ve got to say that one of my favourite records of all time is the Undertones’ first album. It makes me tap my toes and smile every time I hear it.
Once again, I spent more time at my electronics bench, putting components back into their proper drawers and tidying up a little bit. There’s still a long way to go but it’s better than it was.
I did some more writing today, too. I’m working on a short story right now. I’ll probably never finish it, but I find that writing is a relaxing and enjoyable way to spend some time.
My appointment with Dr W went very well, too. He was happy to hear that things are going well and cautioned me to not despair if I have a bad day once in a while. Everyone has them, and having one doesn’t mean that I’m on another downward slide. I need to remember that. We also spoke quite a bit about my medications and decided to leave everything alone for the time being.
I’m very lucky that Dr W kept me on as a patient after I left the hospital. He is encouraging and helpful but doesn’t sugarcoat anything. He’s not condescending, and I appreciate that when it comes to making decisions about my treatment, he includes me in the discussion.
With luck, I’ll sleep a little better this evening and feel even better tomorrow.
Stay safe.