Song: “Paranoid” by The Dickies
Mood: 5.5
Nightmares: 3?
More nightmares last night. Not as many as the previous night, and I only had to go to the living room once. No panic attacks, either, but a lot of discomfort. I’m not sure what’s going on, other than they seem to show up in clusters like this. I’m not doing anything differently during the day or eating candy before bed (okay, sometimes I do that), and J and I have been steering clear of movies containing horror/zombies/gore, so I’m kind of at a loss. It’s already gotten old, though. Same bloody nightmares for the last three years – the lifejackets this time. I need to find those recordings that Dr C and I made a long time ago and listen to them over and over again. I think that helped somewhat last time.
My mother-in-law came by today for a visit. She was in town and stopped by on her way home. It was good to see her and the three of us had a good talk. She also brought along two boxes of old records! I haven’t gone through them yet but I plan to give them a look (and perhaps a listen) tomorrow. Hopefully there’ll be some neat stuff in there.
After my mother-in-law left, J and I hung out and talked quite a bit. Like I’ve said before, we never seem to have a shortage of things to talk about, even if we’ve been around each other all weekend. I like that a lot.
We ordered out for supper this evening and got fried chicken from the best fried chicken place in the city. Unlike so many other restaurants in town, this one is actually not that far from us so it arrived nice and fresh. It was a particularly good batch, too. J and I treated ourselves and ate downstairs and watched a few episodes of Parks and Recreation. We’ve started into the second season and it’s been good so far. I don’t find it to be a laugh-out-loud kind of show, but it’s very quirky and makes me chuckle a lot. Good cast, good premise, and good writing.
After that, J and I hung out for a while. She played her game on her tablet and I flew around blowing stuff up in Star Trek. There are so many things that can influence how your ship or ground crew performs – bridge officers, duty officers, consoles/modules, the type of ship, what kind/species of officer you chose to be, the species/rank/skills of officers you have doing which jobs, the equipment you’re using… so many different things, but I’m starting to figure a little bit out. The Gungalosis II is surviving more and more battles (but is admittedly spending a LOT of time on fire) and I have figured out my role in team maps. I fly in first and distract all of the bad guys and get mangled (which leads to my ship being on fire), while my teammates sneak by and actually accomplish the goals, then swoop back and (ideally) save me before there’s a large cloud of used spaceship parts floating around.
I’ve been trying not to think about the stuff that’s bothering me today. Haven’t had a lot of luck but I’ve been able to distract myself for a bit here and there, which has been nice. I still have no idea what to think or do – hopefully I will be able to talk about it with Dr P and, with luck, it’ll all boil down to something I misunderstood or misheard.
But it’s way past my bedtime and my eyes aren’t pointing in the same direction anymore. I think that means I need to get myself to bed.
Stay safe.