Working On A Plan

Song: “Snowbird” by Anne Murray

Mood: 6

Nightmares: 0

Ghosts: Lots

This is going to be a very short post – I really need to get to bed.

Dad texted me today with some questions and thoughts and we ended up talking about particle-wave duality, classical vs quantum computing, lasers, quantum entanglement… it was quite the chat to have by text and I enjoyed it. Got me thinking a lot.

Had my Dr C appointment and spent almost the entire thing talking about the stuff that’s been butting me a lot this week. No 100% solution, but I’ve been giving it some thought and I think I know what I’m going to do. Just need to do a bit of research, some more thinking, and then talk with J or Dr C to make sure I’m not going overboard or anything like that.

Finished that Spirograph set for my nephews today! I was tweaking the settings between runs and some of the pieces look a little different but hey – I made it very clear that I’m still getting used to this and the parts may not look 100% but they’re sincere…

FA is coming over tomorrow! It will be wonderful to see her again! I’m not 100% sure what we have planned yet but I’m hoping to ask her some questions about 3D printing (she’s been doing it for a while now) and it would be great if we could get in some Carcassonne or something!

Stay safe.

Not One Of My Greatest Days

Song: N/A

Mood: 6 (barely)

Nightmares: 0

Ghosts: Horde

I’m feeling a little off today, like my brain is running at 120% capacity but I don’t know what it’s doing. I got some sleep last night, though, so I can’t complain about that.

I watched some more DS9, worked some more on the prints for my nephews, and worked on designing those medals I talked about yesterday. The good news is that it looks like the PLA I’m using will bridge small gaps pretty well so I should be able to print a medal whole, instead of having to glue two pieces together.

I chased a lot of ghosts today, too. A couple of them took me downstairs and I ended up sitting in front of the hot water tank, waiting and listening as it went through a cycle. In my defense, the tank is making a couple of weird noises now. I suspect it won’t be that long before we will need a new one.

J and I watched some more The Good Place this evening.

I have a Dr C appointment tomorrow. I need to talk to her about the amount of time I’ve been thinking about some stuff. Hopefully she has some suggestions.

Stay safe.

Watching Some DS9

Song: N/A

Mood: 6

Nightmares: 0

Ghosts: Lots

I don’t think I slept very well last night. I don’t remember too much about the night other than worrying pretty badly about the garage door twice, but something must’ve happened because my brain wasn’t working well at all and all I wanted to do was close my eyes and drift off. So I did the drift-off-jump-awake thing for quite a while. There was a bit of wind outside too, so the ghosts were out in full force today, interrupting me quite a bit despite my music being cranked up. I may need to go the ear defender route again.

My folks called this morning to say hi and see how things were going. They are doing well and they were happy to hear that stuff around here is moving along, too. I appreciate and enjoy getting calls like that. It’s nice.

I printed the second batch of Spirograph pieces today and they turned out pretty well. One – possibly two more to go and it’ll be done!

I texted with my sister today and asked her if she thought it would be a good idea if I made some medals for my nephew’s hockey team end of season. I made it clear that I’m still learning a lot about how the printing works and I may not be able to make something that looks good enough to use. She thought it would be great so that’s another project I’ve added to my list, and I’m already puzzling out how to go about doing it. I know how I want it to work, I just need to figure that part out.

Spent too much time today dwelling on that awful person I know. It’s bugging me an awful lot, but I can’t seem to figure out anything I can do about it. Maybe Dr C will be able to help me with it.

I haven’t seen Deep Space Nine since I watched it after work days with colleagues back in… 2003? Anyway, it’s been a long time so I thought I would give it a try again. The effects sure don’t hold up but seeing the characters introduce themselves and go about their business almost makes me feel like I’m meeting old friends again. I look forward to watching some more and seeing how the characters develop.

I did some sewing today. Started in on the towel material that J’s aunt gave to me (thanks again!!!). It’s going alright so far, I think I will be able to get six or eight hand towels out of the one piece, and there’s still another piece waiting.

This evening, J and I watched some more The Good Place. I don’t think there’s been a bad episode yet!

Tomorrow I am going to do more sewing as well as working on that medal idea. Hopefully I’ll make some progress.

Hopefully the ghosts back off, too.

Stay safe.

One Of Those Days…

Song: “Little Arrows” by Leapy Lee

Mood: 6

Nightmares: 0

Ghosts: Horde

We got a decent amount of snow last night. Oddly, I think I slept pretty well – I can only remember waking up three times to worry about things. This morning, though, I felt like I was 419 years old. Slow to move, slow to think, and astonishingly prone to bumping into things or dropping stuff.

Lots of people were out today shovelling or blowing out their driveways today, and for whatever reason, the sounds were really getting to me. Even the normal sounds inside the house, like the cereal settling in the box or the plastic bag rustling a bit were enough to give me a jolt. I don’t know why, but I just couldn’t turn it down today for some reason.

I also spent a lot of time thinking about that person I wrote about yesterday. I’m trying to not let it get to me but I really strongly feel like I should be doing something about him – I just don’t know what. When I talked to J about it, she had some good suggestions. She also mentioned that her dad is one of the adherents of the “universe takes care of things” attitude. I usually agree with that but I’ve seen this person (just to be clear, I’m talking about the dirtbag right now) weasel out of so many situations he caused over the years, and the thought of him getting away with some of the other stuff makes me… angry? I’m not sure if that’s the right word. I haven’t really been able to get angry for over three years now.

I should really stop thinking about this stuff. Maybe I will ask Dr C about it when I see her this week.

Between my clumsiness, the fact that I was jumping like a caffeinated rabbit at everything, and the stuff I was stewing over, I spent a lot of the day clenching my jaw, which led to a nasty headache in the afternoon. I used to have headaches every single day at work, and often on the weekends too. I don’t like taking tylenol if I can help it because some of the other stuff I’m taking is tough on the old liver, but after a particular point it doesn’t make sense to deal with it anymore, so I grab one or two to hopefully knock the headache back a bit.

J called while I was getting ready to head out and clear the driveway today. She was just calling from work to say hello and chat for a couple of minutes, which I enjoyed. It was very good to talk to her, and it had the advantage of giving me a reason to procrastinate going out to clear the driveway.

The snowblower started up great and ran like a champ today but I swear, some days it’s like it has a mind of its own and I have to fight with it just to keep it moving in a straight line. When I finished, I was sweaty and hot, so I put everything away and closed the garage door and leaned against the fence with my eyes closed, trying very hard to enjoy the fresh air for a couple of minutes before I went back inside. I still don’t like being out, particularly when I can’t see the front door, but I’m definitely getting more used to being outside in the driveway and stuff like that.

I moved the filament spool holder for the 3D printer today. Instead of being bolted to the control box, it’s now way off to the left. This looks a little more awkward but I think it will actually end up being easier on everything – now that there’s a little bit of slack in the system, the filament won’t jump off the spool when the extruder backs the filament up, and the angle of the filament off the spool won’t be as severe like it is now when the Z arm is either very low or very high. I have also moved the printer back toward the wall a little more and the controller closer to the printer so the cables will have more slack than they do now. Of course, I was having the same clumsy issues this afternoon, so something that should’ve taken, say, 15 minutes took close to an hour, had me broken out in a serious flop sweat, and I was running in circles, trying to figure out where the screws or drillbit or any number of other things had gone or why they wouldn’t fit.

All in all, a frustrating and kind of rough day. Things got so much better after J got home, but we didn’t get a chance to sit down and watch some TV like we usually do. I don’t know if I mentioned this before, but we’re currently on The Good Place, which has been pretty great so far. My favourite characters are definitely Janet and Michael. That sounds familiar… I think I did write about this before. Oh well.

Hopefully tomorrow will be an easier day with less noises, less anxiety, less brooding, less head aching, and more enjoyable productivity.

Stay safe.

It Feels Like Thursday

Song: N/A

Mood: 6.5

Nightmares: 0

Ghosts: Several

Friday and Saturday felt like Friday and Saturday, but today feels like Thursday and I have no idea why. We’re supposed to be getting a lot of snow tonight – some has fallen already but it should continue for a while. Looks like I’ll be running the snowblower again tomorrow, I’m glad J and I went to fill up the gas can last week!

I can’t believe it’s 2019. I haven’t written any dates wrong yet but I don’t think I’ll be out of the woods with that until, oh… March.

The weekend went reasonably well. I didn’t sleep too badly – no nightmares for a little while now, and I didn’t even wake up too many times last night.

My appointment on Friday with Dr C went better than I was expecting. It had been a while since my last appointment and I was worried that it was going to be even harder to go and pay attention but fortunately things were about the same as they were before the holidays. Oh, and I gave her the phrenology bust. I think she liked it but she may have just been professional about it. Either way, I told her that she was welcome to bin it or whatever she wanted to do with it – I enjoyed making it so whatever she wanted was fine. Oh, and here’s how it turned out:

Phrenology Bust


Unfortunately, my hands aren’t quite as steady as they used to be so some of the lines are a little more ragged than I had hoped but otherwise I’m pretty pleased with it.

Oh, and if you’re a particular age and from a particular region, you may remember the “Spirograph” toy from your childhood. We had one and my sister and I used it until we’d lost most of the parts. I found a 41-piece set to print on Thingiverse and started printing today. It’s going to take a couple of runs because I can’t fit all 41 pieces on at once but that’s okay. I was wondering if I should change filament spools before I started it but the printer has a filament-out sensor and (hopefully) wouldn’t just keep going, adding layers of hot air instead of plastic. Well, it finished before the filament ran out, but I don’t think I’m going to start any new projects with what’s left on the spool:

3D Printer Out Of FilamentI’ve really been enjoying making stuff and figuring out how to make stuff.

On a somewhat less fun note, I found out a little while ago that someone I know did some bad stuff a couple of years ago. The rumour is that he’s hiding somewhere (I have no idea where) and laying low. I have been thinking about this pretty constantly since the weekend, wondering if there’s something I can do or if I should just stay out of it. I know staying out of it is probably the smart choice, but one of the themes that keep coming up with me is that I want to be a good person. Good people do good things, right? And wouldn’t a good thing be to figure out where that dirtbag is and report him to the police? Maybe the police already know where he is, or are already looking for him. Maybe they’re not aware of what he did (it happened in another country). But maybe I should just try to rein this stuff in and stop thinking about it – I have neither the resources of Bruce Wayne nor the detective smarts of Batman, and there’s no guarantee that I wouldn’t end up getting myself into trouble. Actually, with my luck, that’s probably exactly what would happen. But this is bothering me.

Argh… now that I’ve written that down, I’m agonizing over whether to erase it or not. Ctrl-Z and Ctrl-Y are getting a bit of a workout.

Screw it, I’m leaving it. It’s what’s on my mind, and I write these to talk about what’s on my mind.

J made some truly remarkable steaks for supper this evening. She always makes great steak (she does it in a Dutch oven!) but tonight’s were fantastic. I kept wanting to close my eyes and just savour the textures and flavours. We had them with basmati rice which, at first glance may sound strange, but when the juice from the bottom of the Dutch oven was poured over it… if there had been enough, I would’ve happily eaten myself sick. Delicious.

So now we wait and see how much snow we end up actually getting. At least it’s not supposed to be too cold tomorrow.

Stay safe.

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Videos That Make Me Smile, Part V

It’s been a little while since I posted some weird or cheesy videos that make me chuckle. I haven’t been browsing around as much so I haven’t just stumbled across as many but here are a few of the better ones. Enjoy!

Here are my other posts like this: PART I, PART II, PART III, and PART IV .

Clarke and Dawe – The Front Fell Off

The first time I saw this video, I didn’t realize it was two comedians doing a sketch. It’s so well done and utterly believable that this could be a real politician being interviewed by a real journalist. The “minimum crew” line gets me every time.

Sick Trombone Motorcycle Prank

Well, it’s really more a Sick Trombone Car (Or Maybe A Truck) Prank, but it’s still amusing. It sounds pretty good right at the beginning but loses a bit as the video goes on.

Goose and dog Beagle best friends

I like videos like this. I always wonder how these very different animals become actual buddies who hang out, instead of having the typical predator/prey or large/small or bossy/timid relationship.

Nerd Vandalism

It’s short, but the guy waving and saying, “Hi!” makes me chuckle every time.

Snickers Betty White Commercial (English Version)

The first time I saw this commercial, I laughed and laughed and laughed… I don’t think I’ll ever get tired of it. RIP Abe Vigoda – you were a class act.

Stay safe.

Heard From WG!

Song: “Cover Of The Rolling Stone” by Dr Hook (RIP Ray Sawyer)

Mood: 6.5

Nightmares: 0

Ghosts: Lots

Just a short post this evening as it’s already quite late.

I didn’t sleep too badly last night. I still woke up worrying about things but it didn’t seem as urgent last night so it was easier to get back to sleep.

Today I spent a lot of time working on that phrenology bust. I am happy to report that the two halves fit together pretty much perfectly! A little bit of latex caulking to minimize the seam, a spray of white paint, tracing the lines and numbers with a magic marker, and then a light coat of clear paint. I finished putting the clear paint on at around 7:10PM and I’d been working on it off and on since 9:30AM. I’m pretty pleased with how it looks – I will try to remember to take a picture before I give it to Dr C. Some of my lines and numbers aren’t quite how I wanted them but I’m a little shakier now than I used to be so I can’t really help it.

No printing today, since the room is closed because I used spray paint in it and it stinks, and I need to give the printer a good cleaning before I use it again. I printed up a dustpan last night and I think it will see some use tomorrow. I want to take as good care of the printer as possible. I know I can get spare parts for everything but the less I have to take together and rebuild, the better.

Oh, and I had a superglue incident today. I was using a tube of glue from my local dollar store, and it was a little reluctant to flow (I was gluing the two halves of the phrenology bust together). I squeezed it a little harder and it burped out blobs of superglue all over – on the printer, on the computer… everywhere. I thought I’d found and cleaned them all up but I didn’t realize that when I was holding the pieces together while they set, I put my forearm down in a glob of fresh superglue. I discovered what was going on when I had counted to two minutes and tried to move my arm. I didn’t have any phones or smartphones within reach but fortunately I had a scraper on the bench. I very, very carefully worked the scraper through until I was free. The redness is almost gone!

WG called this evening! I haven’t heard from him in almost a year! It was great to chat with him – I’ve been trying to get ahold of him for a little while now but he is very busy and doesn’t own a mobile phone (that’s not a typo) so it can be tricky sometimes. We are going to get together sometime soon, but not for a bit because work tends to get crazy right after the holidays. It was great to talk with him about stuff like records and cars and all kinds of things. I miss him a lot.

Tomorrow I have an appointment with Dr C. It’s my first one in a couple of weeks so it may be a little more difficult than usual. Fingers crossed it goes well.

Stay safe.

Accomplished Quite A Bit Today

Song: “Holiday Road” by Lyndsey Buckingham

Mood: 6.5

Nightmares: 0

Ghosts: Pack

I got to bed later than I hoped last night, but aside from an average number of times my worrying brain woke me up, I slept pretty well. I was having trouble getting back to sleep after J left for work, and I almost got out of bed but pulled the blankets over my head (one of the advantages of having a CPAP machine!), flipped over, and gave it one last shot. The next thing I knew, it was about an hour later.

My worry and mindfulness exercises went pretty well today, too. I’ve been doing them upstairs a lot more lately, which I think is a little more healthy than retreating to the dim stillness of the basement every morning. I know Dr C is concerned that I’m going to become reliant on the worrying and mindfulness time, so I don’t do it every day anymore. It’s weird, but I can feel it on the days I don’t do it or when it doesn’t go well. Do I need it to function? No… but it makes the day better when I do the exercises.

I sent out my texts today and had a couple of conversations. My friend DA picked up a brand new, custom-built Jeep today from the dealership and he’s ecstatic about it. I don’t think he’s ever bought a brand new car or truck in his entire life. I sent him a text the other day warning him about “new car smell” in case he got into the car and didn’t recognize the smell. He found that pretty amusing. Now that he’s got it home, he’s got to figure out what to do about the first dent or scratch – wait for them to happen or just toss a couple of pebbles at it and get it over with?

I did some more cleaning in the kitchen today. It amazes me how quickly J and I manage to use all of the plates, cutlery, and pans. We both tidy up but the odd thing here and there that doesn’t fit in the dishwasher and gets left for the next load multiplies and brings friends over to visit. It’s crazy. Sometimes I think we should just use chunks of bread to eat food off of paper plates. Hmm… maybe we should eat out of bread bowls. That’d solve a couple of things at the same time!

I called my parents today. Spoke with Mom first and we talked for a good 15 minutes about all kinds of stuff. All three of my uncles are doing fairly well and are in good spirits. My uncle who had cancer is having a great time hanging out with family over the holidays, my uncle with the diabetes related amputation is expecting to be getting a prosthetic leg soon, and my uncle with the ALS is getting progressively weaker but is still in a great mood. Mom was in a good mood, too, and I enjoyed our chat.

Then she passed the phone over to Dad. We talked about the normal stuff for a couple of minutes and he told me that he’s been reading a book about how the universe started and the work being done to understand it. We spent the next 60-70 minutes talking about physics and the various minds behind the hypotheses or theories. It was pretty neat – every once in a while, Dad reads something that really interests him and he likes to talk about it and I am happy to oblige, particularly when it’s something I am quite interested in, like physics or microbiology or tons of other topics. I had a great time chatting with him – we kind of geeked out about stuff over the phone and it was neat.

I am happy to report more success with the printer – both pieces of the phrenology bust adhered wonderfully to the print bed and printed perfectly flat. Tomorrow morning I will trim them and clean them up, then glue them together and spray on a thin coat pf paint. Hopefully a fan will help it dry faster so I can do all of the painting, dry it, and then spray on a clear coat. With luck (and more than a few stretched nerves) I will have it ready to give to Dr C at my appointment on Friday.

I also printed up a little dustpan for the printer. I’ve been using a sheet of paper as a dustpan but I’ve had several oopsies with it and wanted something better.

I also sewed the last of the handles on the last of the bags today. I took a look at them after I finished and I’m pretty sure they’ll be serviceable. They look like they’ll hold more stuff than I anticipated. I hope they’re helpful!

Homemade bag

New bag – with handles and everything!

Next on my list is to use up that towel material that J’s aunt brought over. I’ll need to look at it again but I think I can get a towel and a couple of facecloths out of each piece.

This evening, J and I turned on Netflix again and watched the first two episodes of The Good Place. Looks pretty decent so far – I really like Michael and Janet.

Tomorrow I plan to give the printer and the area around it a good cleaning, get that phrenology bust done, work some more on the kitchen, get some more towels made, listen to some records, throw in some laundry, print up a bunch more stuff, and go for a drive in the truck. There’s no way I’ll be able to do even half that stuff, but I find it’s good to have a list.

Stay safe.

Trying Out Netflix

Song: “The Happening” by The Supremes

Mood: 7

Nightmares: 0

Ghosts: Several

Yesterday and today have been decent days. There’s been time to do stuff around the house, time for hobbies, time to talk to people, and time to relax. J had yesterday off so she had a four-day weekend, which was really great. Things are so much better when she’s around – it’s difficult to explain but the world is brighter and has more colour when we talk or clean the kitchen or just sit around and do our own things.

I’ve been slowly getting better with the 3D printer. J’s aunt came over the other day and liked the cat bowl thing I made (or at least she said she did), and I gave her a couple of hooks for her kitchen, too. It’s taken a while (and I’m probably going to regret thinking this) but after a great deal of research (most of which contradicted itself) and trial and error, I can now start a print and, if the first layer looks good, I can leave it alone and come back when it’s done. I’ve been playing with a few different CAD programs and have been having some luck with the simpler ones. Boy, has CAD software ever changed in 25 years…

Now that I’m a little more familiar with the printer and the two plastics I’m going to stick with (PLA and PETG), I am thinking of a ton of things I can try to do with the printer. This is both good and bad. Good because I find it very interesting and enjoy working with that stuff. Bad because 3D printing is not what you’d call “fast”. So instead of juggling ideas around on various pieces of paper, my Boogie Board, and in my head, I made a spreadsheet, which currently has… 59 items on it. Fortunately, working on this stuff isn’t high priority so I can just have fun with it.

It’s become a lot colder here over the last little while, and, in addition to worrying, there have been a lot of weird sounds that have woken me up or kept me awake during the night. Some of the sounds are easy to identify, while I can’t figure out what or where the sounds are from. I suspect some of them are the neighbour, but when it’s 4:17AM and something is making a thump or two or three at 4:17AM, I have no idea what it could be.

My sister gave us a Netflix gift card for Christmas (I don’t know if she reads this, but if she does, thank you!!!) and J set it up. I’m on the fence when it comes to Netflix. I like the idea in principle, but I’d much rather have the physical DVDs or Blu-ray discs. I don’t like how I can’t count on the shows I like being available when I want to watch them again in a year or two or five. If you’re shaking your head right now and are wondering how many times I could possibly want to watch a show, ask J how many times we (or I) have gone through House, Scrubs, Community, Castle, Elementary, The Incredibles,the firstPirates of the Caribbean, Firefly, Knight Rider, The Transformers (G1!!), Futurama, the Marvel movies, etc, etc, etc.

I’m also conflicted in that I don’t like the idea of a single company having a monopoly on streaming videos, but I also don’t like that if I want to watch Show A I need a Netflix account, but Show B is on Amazon, and Show C is on Disney. On the other hand, there’s an awful lot of stuff available on Netflix that I likely wouldn’t try if I had to buy the DVD box set.

[Just added two more ideas to the print list, it’s at 61 now]

There’s been a lot of mention lately about the movie Bird Box. J is not usually a horror/suspense movie kind of person but we decided to give it a try last night. I was a little wary of it – from what I thought, it was basically A Quiet Place (which I haven’t seen yet), but with eyes instead of ears. There were a few scenes that bothered me, and I didn’t like the implications about people with mental illness. I also think some of the visuals and themes could be triggering under certain circumstances, which is very important to consider if you’re thinking of watching the movie. There were also a few things that stuck out like a sore thumb to me and almost took me out of the movie. They’re kind of spoiler-y, though, so I’ll list them after the end of this post so you don’t have to read them if you don’t want to.

We also watched Jack Reacher: Never Go Back. It was… alright. Pretty formulaic and predictable, looked and sounded like it had a smaller budget, and – I can’t believe I’m saying this – there were too many fight scenes. Plus, they went out of their way to make Sam as unlikable as possible. Oh, and Ms Smulders, you definitely made the right choice because Tom Cruise is old enough to be YOUR DAD.

So that is the summary of our Netflix exploration so far. Not too bad, I suppose.

Otherwise, the rest of the week is pretty quiet. J heads back to work tomorrow and I have a Dr C appointment on Friday, but that’s pretty much it. Oh – speaking of Dr C, I have another phrenology bust printing now… hopefully this time the pieces won’t warp so it goes together perfectly!

Stay safe.


Spoilers ahead – be warned!


Spoilers! Don’t look if you don’t want to know!


Last warning – spoilers!



  • So… it’s gonna be the mentally ill / crazy people, eh? Why not a different crowd for once? What about the MBAs, the people who like candy corn, people who keep snakes as pets, or the people with gonorrhea this time? Or maybe the MBAs with snakes and gonorrhea who like candy corn? I bet the people in the center of THAT Venn diagram would be pretty interesting…
  • The lady in the hospital and Lydia… holy #&%@ that was seriously %@$(&@^
  • How can they possibly still have power and water?
  • Five years on and they are still able to gas up their cars?
  • Five years on and they’re driving like crazy people (ehurgh) and the cars are ok? So they’re psychotic but when not doing horrible things to people, they dabble in routine engine and tire maintenance?
  • So, uh… how much food can a school hold? And what happens in winter?

All The Best In 2019!

J, Lloyd, Fat Fish, Buddy, Buddy, Buddy, Buddy, Buddy, Buddy, Buddy, and Buddy the shrimps, and I wish you a Happy New Year and we hope that 2019 is a great year for you and everyone you care about!

To the people who stuck by me and helped me so much over the past year (I hope you know who you are) – I can’t think of a way to properly express the magnitude of my gratitude, so I hope a “thank you” will do. You have done more for me than you can imagine and I am forever grateful!

Take care, everyone, and try to make a point of visiting or calling or Skype-ing or Facetime-ing someone you care about. Keeping in touch with people can be difficult at times but it’s so incredibly rewarding in the long run!

Stay safe.