Song: “Get Over You” by The Undertones
Last night didn’t go very well. I had a few bad dreams and two nightmares that woke me up, and one of them was quite bad and took a long time to calm down from. Getting up this morning was a little rougher than usual. I don’t have much of a reason to complain, though – it’s been four or five days since my last nightmare, which is a lot better than the way it used to be. This sounds silly, but it would be really nice if I had different nightmares once in a while instead of the same three.
My exercises didn’t go as well today as I would have liked. I was feeling a little groggy from the poor sleep and had trouble concentrating on both my mindfulness and worry exercises. I’m still jumping like a flea whenever there’s a sudden noise, and that doesn’t help either.
I went for my walk right after I finished my exercises. I took the route I did back on Monday, which takes me over to the next block and well beyond where I can even catch a glimpse of the house. I really, really don’t like doing stuff like this. The anxiety builds quickly when I get away from the house and it’s a terrible feeling. Plus, when I feel the anxiety ramping up, I start to get worried I’m on my way to another panic attack, and I’m horrified I’m going to have it in public.
The good news is that the weather was very pleasant today and I feel less silly when I go for a walk than when I just stand out in the back, doing nothing.
No ERP homework for this week, although if I see myself slipping on things I think I’ll go back to doing it instead of waiting for my next appointment.
After I got back home, I listened to a couple of records to help me calm down after I got back from the walk. I blew the dust off of the Undertones’ first album and listened to it all the way through twice. “Get Over You” is probably in my top five songs of all time.
I also watched a couple of YouTube videos. When I grew up, we had The People’s Court, with Judge Wapner presiding. Now, there are TONS of different “court” shows. I watched a couple of episodes and was, frankly, amazed at the lengths that people are willing to go to to humiliate themselves when they’re on TV. I hope those shows pay the guests well.
I got bored of the courtroom stuff quickly so I went and worked on the quadcopter again. It’s been transmitting an image from the onboard camera to the goggles, but it hasn’t been sending the telemetry. I was hoping to have that mainly so I could tell what state the battery is in. I don’t want to be running the battery flat every time I use it because that’s not good for them. Well, after some more research, messing around, and luck, I got it working:
Once I get that new motor, I’ll be ready to fly! We don’t have a lot of snow right now so maybe I could even try it out in the nearby park. That would probably be smarter than trying it in the living room again and taking out another plant (or worse). Oh, and speaking of wrecking stuff, I found gashes in the dining room ceiling the other day that weren’t there before. I’m starting to wonder if I should be wearing goggles when I’m flying this thing…
I don’t have any extravagant plans for the weekend. J is going to a movie with her cousin tomorrow afternoon so I’ll be by myself for a while. I really need to catch up on laundry and my mother-in-law is coming over on Monday so I’ll need to make sure all the dirty socks laying around the house get picked up.