Song: “The Show Must Go On” by Leo Sayer
I didn’t sleep well last night. No nightmares, but I found it very difficult to get comfortable for any length of time. I don’t know if it’s my posture, the weight I’ve put on, or the mattress, but I’ve got to do something about this or it’s going to start causing problems.
I got up with J this morning (I was already awake) and had breakfast, then once she left I went down to the basement and sat in the comfy chair to try and get some more sleep. No luck – despite being tired, my mind was racing and kept me from falling asleep. I tried to meditate but didn’t have much luck with that, either. All I did for quite a while was sit in the chair, stare at the wall, and feel kind of miserable.
Eventually, I managed to drag myself out of the chair so I could have a sandwich for lunch, after which I went right back to the chair, with the same results. Finally, around 3PM, I heaved myself out of the chair again and went back upstairs and forced myself to play with a Raspberry Pi for a while. I have a bunch of them sitting around right now and for the life of me I can’t figure out what to do with them. Maybe some inspiration will hit if I keep poking around at them.
Shortly after J got home we had supper and then she went to her yoga class and I went into my room/office/laboratory and started cleaning up. It’s been a mess in there for months which makes it more difficult to do pretty much anything, so maybe now that it’s a lot tidier I’ll have more luck with my brainstorming and other stuff too.
I wish I could find a project to do that really captured my imagination. Something that I would be excited to work on and would jump out of bed to get at it. Something that I’d daydream about when I wasn’t working on it. Whether it’s a new story or something microscopic or electronics or a welding project… I just wish something would really grab me in a way that I wouldn’t need to worry about having to force myself to do it.
Today has not been a great day. Hopefully tomorrow will be better.