Monthly Archives: June 2017

I can’t seem to shake whatever it is that’s making me so tired. I’m sleeping 12-14 hours per day, which I really don’t want to do. I’ve got tons of stuff that I either should be doing or want to be doing instead of sleeping the day away.

Otherwise, the weekend went quite well. J and I figured out where we’re going to put the garden and one or two trees, too. I plan to grow a couple of tomato plants, some beans, some onions, some carrots, and some potatoes. It’s not going to be a very large garden but I’m looking forward to getting our first veggies out of it! J and I may go to the lumber store tomorrow to pick up the cedar boards, brackets, and soil to build the garden enclosure and have it ready to go.

WG called this evening. I really wasn’t expecting to hear from him for a while but it was great to talk to him. It was probably the longest phone conversation I’ve had in weeks! He also invited me along to the record store tomorrow so I’ll meet him at his house and we’ll take his car from there. I’m excited about hanging out with WG and going to the record store again. With luck, I’ll find a few more gems in the dollar bin – some more James Last would be great!

I think I’m also going to ask WG if I can buy him lunch. It would be good to be able to sit down and have a good conversation, too.

I have a Dr C appointment on Tuesday, a Dr W appointment on Wednesday, and I may possibly be getting together with FA on Friday. Another busy week coming up!

Stay safe!

I couldn’t get out of bed today until just before noon. The good news is that once I was up for a bit, I started to feel a little less tired than I have lately. I feel bad for cancelling on FA but there was no way I was going to even hold a good conversation until around 2PM. Since then, I’ve been feeling alright. I still feel the pull of the bed but I feel like I have the reserves to fight it today which is pretty nice.

I accomplished very little today. I was going to go outside and work on the bike but I got two steps outside and abruptly turned around and went back in. It was around 33C out. That’s way too hot for me. I went out to the back yard, said a little prayer, and flicked the switch on our ancient air conditioner, then went inside again to test it. It worked – and we may be able to squeeze another year out of it!

One of our neighbours moved out today. It’s too bad. She was a really good neighbour, always friendly and would wave hello whenever she was out or driving by. Her dad also has a pretty nice motorcycle that he would visit along with a couple more riding friends. Good neighbours are a blessing. I wonder what the next owner or owners of the house will be like.

You know, now that I think about it, in some ways I must be getting better. The last time one of our neighbours were getting ready to move, J actually told me to sit down and she broke the news to me gently. Even so, I was still quite upset. This time, though… it’s been about five years since the last move and, while I still wish she weren’t moving, I’m okay with the whole thing. I should probably let Dr C and Dr W know about this.

I had a really good chat with my mom this evening. We talked about pretty much everything and had a good time. My folks are coming into town sometime soon for an appointment and, with luck, they’ll be able to stop in for a visit on their way home. We’ll see how things work out.

It’s very dark outside right now; the streetlights have all turned on. With how warm it was today I think we’re going to get a storm. If so, it’ll be the first one since the storm I sat through at DA’s cabin. I’m a little nervous but very interested in how I’ll react. J and I spent some time outside, sitting on the deck and blowing bubbles – a traditional pre-thunderstorm activity for us.

I just heard some thunder. Wish me luck.

Have a good weekend and stay safe!

I spent a lot of today in bed. Mostly it was because I was tired but for a while I was feeling kind of down, too. I’m not entirely sure why but fortunately it seems to have passed.

I did a lot of thinking when I wasn’t sleeping. Thinking about how long I’ve been away from work, wondering how long it’s going to take until I can reliably work again, how long I’m going to have to worry about little things sending me back to the psych ward… stuff like that. J says that she thinks that I’ve got another layer of strength since I last got out of the hospital. I don’t feel like it but it would be really nice if it were true.

I texted FA today and said that I was too tired to get together tomorrow. She texted back that it was okay but I feel pretty bad for doing that. She’s a really good friend and I enjoy hanging out with her. Hopefully she understands and we can get together again soon.

J has had a lot of stuff going on lately. She’s been doing a lot of things at work, taking distance classes, went to an interview for a volunteer position, and found time to fire off a resume. Now that she’s taken her final exam and things have quieted down at work, we celebrated with a pizza night. I’ll use any excuse for a pizza night but the truth is I’m very proud of her and all the work she does.

Spring is here – of that, there can be no doubt. It got up to around 26C today and it’s supposed to make it into the low 30s over the next few days. I’m not a big fan of the heat but I really like the smells and sounds of spring. Fresh cut grass, the sound of birds singing… I like spring.

I’m not sure what I’m going to do tomorrow. Probably spend most of it in bed again. I’m going to make a goal of finishing up the motorcycle. Depending on what it’s like and how I feel, I may even fire it up and take it for a ride. It’d be nice to be back on the bike again.

Stay safe!